Jolanda ;

HAPPY WEEKEND :D

2010-04-12T09:59:00.021+08:00

10th April 2010

B came to fetch me from work @ Eunos,
train-ed over to Bugis, walked over to iluma & shop around looking for food!
& finally we settled down @

Empire State.

Impression: Design of the restaurant is nice & comfortable.
Service Crews: Average, but most of the crews are friendly.
Waiting Time: 10-15 minutes.
Overall: Could try.

Main course: Fried Chicken Chop with mashed potato. (ME)
Drink: Root-Beer Float.
Rated: 2.5/5
The chicken is over fried & is too salty.
But the mashed potato is fabulous together with the black-pepper sauce

Side-Order: Seafood Bites.
Rated: 2/5
Not too bad, but not up to standard. Is over-cooked inside but the colour outside is nice.
Even Pizza Hut's Seafood Bites is much better.

Main course: Shrooms Cheesy Pizza (B)
Drink: Coke-Lite
Rated: 2.5/5
The bottom dough got 'chao-ta' & the dough is too thick.

After having a heavy lunch, we went Bugis St. and walked around.
& B bought 1 jacket & 1 pants for me which cost him $50+ :D
LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

After shopping spree, we trained over to PS.
actually wanted to watch REC.2 derhs, but because i didn't bring my NRIC.
the stupid Indian woman don't let us buy the tickets!
as such, we bought the tickets for JU-ON: White ghost and Black ghost.
& while waiting for the movie, we went to Star Factory!

spend around $20.00 & B won a Minnie & a Mickey Mouse for me.
(& he was super ultra proud derh lorhs!)

Rated: 2.5/5
The story-line is expected.
I mean almost all the storyline for JU-ON is the same.
So basically i slept in the cinema.

After movie, went back to home (sengkang).
& fall asleep as soon as i touch the bed, but before that!
we starts our camwhoring session!
& home-sweet-home in 4-5am.

11th April 2010

Woke up around 10+-11am, pray to our ancestors & god at home.
& B came over to join us.
Watch the adults play majong & kids playing psp in the room.
& around 4pm, B & i bus-ed to Tampines Mall & caught REC.2

Rated:3.5/5
REC.2 is a continued part for REC.1 (Quarantine).
But however REC.2 isn't as exciting and as gross compared to REC.1.
REC.1 (Quarantine) is about VIRUS! (for those who watched it should understand what i am saying) But REC.2 which continued directly where REC.1 ends, is telling us that its actually not virus, but DEMONS! So people who caught REC.1 (Quarantine) , thats not the ending yet. You might want to continue watching REC.2.

After movie B & i went home (Tampines) & everyone were like laughing at B,
as he got giddy after watching REC.2 !!
& then we starts the camwhoring session again!

LAUGH MY ASS OUT!

2010-04-05T15:10:00.004+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG!
haven't been blogging for 2 months already!
can no longer find the correct mood, correct feeling to blog anymore! :(
& of cause, i am ultra lazy to blog! :D

anyway,
these 2 months have been the same to me!
Nothing special except!
we celebrated our 2nd year anniversary with his sister & brother,
& me went to a few company for interview.

& today i have something which i find it funny to share!

me: "put the resignation letter on boss table"

boss (come back): whose letter is this?

me & jennifer: (silent)

boss: "read the letter" JOANNE YOU DON'T WANT WORK ALREADY AH?

me: yah

boss: HOW COME DON'T WANT WORK ALREADY?! COME COME COME IN & WE TALK!

me: "silently walk into his office"

boss: WHY? WHAT HAPPEN? WHY DON'T WANT CONTINUE WORKING?

me: cause of personal reasons lorhs

boss: WHAT PERSONAL REASONS?!

jennifer: cause she feels that you keep scolding her when isn't her fault!

me:

boss: NO NO NO! JOANNE! I NEVER MEAN TO SCOLD YOU! I SCOLDING THE JOB NOT YOU!

me: yah yah yah "thinking- whatever~"

boss: YOU HAVE IMPROVED A LOT ALREADY! & I AM VERY HAPPY WITH YOUR PERFORMANCE! DON'T RESIGN LA OK?

me: "wapiang eh, i want resign nia marhs"

boss: continue explain himself~

me: waiting to schedule tomorrow's job ~

boss: schedule job~ continue to explain himself~ then go off

me: wa finally go off lerhs~

boss: suddenly turn back & explain again ~

me: WAPIANG EH!

boss: finally go off lerhs~ rushing for appointment~

*phone: ring ring ring~*

me: halow?

boss: there he goes again~ yadayadayada~

me: orhs *hang up*

*phone: ring ring ring~*

me: halow?

boss: there he goes again~ yadayadayada~

me: orhs =.=" *hang up*

& this goes on for 5 times =.="
SUPER LAME ONE RIGHT?! ROFL!

okays, thats all now!
BYE♥

CAMWHORING! D:

2010-02-22T09:16:00.003+08:00

CHINESE NEW YEAR OVERDUE PICTURES:

祝你们新年快乐，万事如意，财源滚滚 !!

2010-02-18T10:59:00.018+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & BELATED VALENTINES DAY! D:D:

have been going to different people's place to 拜年 & gamble! D:D:
won $90 from 大年除夕 to 大年初二 on blackjack & majong!!
& lost $40 from 大年初三 to 大年初四 on majong :(
But never mind, because in the end i still win $50! D:D:

大年除夕
went boyf's ahma house for lunch & around the evening went home for reunion dinner & cabbed back to sengkang & majong-ed with boyf & sis. played for 2 rounds & cabbed home at 4+am & went to lalaland! D:D:

大年初一 cum Valentines day

wake up early in the morning around 9-10am.
拜年 with my parents, gave my dad an ang bao.
Had lunch & bathed then bro & aunt came over.
Then went to 大姨 house & 拜年 & went to meet up with parents & Juliet 姑姑 at our block downstairs & waited for 姑丈 to send us over to kimkim place with his lorry.
& while waiting, Juliet 姑姑 was telling us they went a lot of rounds finding our place.
& finally when 姑丈 find his way to our carpark, we went up the lorry one by one!
& as Shane was coming up half way, his dad (姑丈) drove off!
& straight away Shane jump off the lorry!
then all of us tried to ask 姑丈 stop the lorry, but he couldn't hear us,
then all of us at the back laughing like crazy & faster call the adults at the front seats!
then poor Shane have to run after the lorry! [HAHAHA] D:D:

Then after reaching kimkim place we started BLACKJACK! D:D:
play till 5+, boyf & me bus-ed over to his ahma place & 拜年.
After 拜年, played BLACKJACK again with his cousins & auntie.
& went off around 9+pm to catch movie.

Went Tampines mall, ate my second meal in the day [MAC DONALD], play arcade & caught the movie 72 tenants!
& i have been sleeping throughout the movie! [AGAIN! =.="]
& boyf was the only one watching the show & i am the one who say "WATCH THIS MOVIE"! & reach home around 2am. D:D:

大年初二
wake up around 10+-11am, eat my lunch, bathed & went to kimkim place to gamble again! till around 7pm, boyf & me set off to Adrian's place. had buffet due to Adrian's brother birthday, played 2 rounds of majong & countless rounds of Sa-Ki-Pik & home around 3+am. D:D:

大年初三
wake up around 10+-11am, ate my lunch, bathe again & went 叔公 house 拜年 with korkor, wendy, slutsis & boyf.
After that went back to kimkim place & majong till 5+ then 二姨丈 send us to big uncle's place.
& went home around 8+pm.
& as 二姨丈 is sending the 7 of us home (Lau Family Only),
we squeeze behind the van & dad was playing & joking around with us.
& boyf & him talking about signing of contract lah, talking how much, must stay near Tampines or else he object.
Then i am like! "WAH! PAPA YOO SELLING YOUR DAUGHTER AH!?"
then after that they laugh,
then boyf say, " HOW COME WE SOUNDS LIKE I AM BUYING PORK?!"
then dad & me started to *arbish* him! ROFL!
then don't know for what reason, while dad & boyf was talking & joking,
boyf suddenly say " 这世界上没有美珍我也不想活了"!
then our reaction is like "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! SO MUSHY!!!!!!!!!! SO 恶心!!!! "
ROFL! & soon we reached home.
Then dad & boyf continue talking & talking maciam good friends sio! =.=" !!
& around 10 send boyf down & slacked awhile.
went home, watched tv & went to lalaland! D:D:

大年初四
came back to work for 兴工, then around 11+am went to MagicWok at Tg.Katong for lunch. & went to Jennifer's place for majong. & homed at 6+pm. Had dinner, watch tv & went to lalaland!

Today
Nothing much, but i am ultra tired & shagged. :(

PS:
the other pictures will be uploaded once i got it from boyf.
(:
So pls bear with the pathetic amount of pictures 1st!
D:D:

Never-Ending :(

2010-02-01T15:49:00.007+08:00

Had a long day today!
damn tiring! :(
the shipment got cocked up again!
container couldn't be truck out again!
everything gonna delay again! *SHIT*
customer gonna go !@#$%^&^%$# again!
& June is on medical leave today!
i have to cover her job & helped out Jennifer a little. :(
so many things to be done man!

*pray*
" boss not to come in today!
if not i am going to die of typing too much of quotations!"

PS:
CRAMPS CRAMPS & CRAMPS! :(

Gaps got bigger :(

2010-01-31T18:20:00.003+08:00

Boyf & i am facing some problem here, i guessed.
is either he is Mr Lai or i am Ms Lai,
went to a couple of places yesterday.
nearly quarrel again & again,
& i have learn my lesson, "never go shopping with him ever again".
many times when i don't even find that i am wrong giving him attitude after he shows me his attitude, he says i am.
when he talk in a harsh tone, he don't find himself wrong, & he repeat that sentence again in another tone which makes himself sounds better!

& i don't go shopping every time.
It's only when the CNY is coming, i find that there is a need to shop & so i did.
So is it my fault to go a lot of places to take a look? Is it my fault that i don't know the way there? Is it my fault that i take a longer time to look at stuffs?

& as i don't shop often, we don't go any other place except PlazaSing for movie, Sengkang (your place) for slacking/majong, Tampines (my place) for slacking/majong, Tampines Mall/Century Square for movie, Bugis for shee-sha , Hougang Mall for dessert, Pasir Ris (Park) for cycling/picnic with your family. I mean that's our routine when we meet up what.

So how well do you want me to remember the route & stuff?
How fast do i have to take to buy my stuffs so that you wouldn't sweat so much that makes you keep on asking me "can we go home & bathe first?"?

I mean it isn't logical lorhs.
I can't even shop happily for once or twice in a year!
*GOSH, FUCKING ANGRY LORHS!*

Then today,
stay at our own place doing spring cleaning. *damn tired*
& i don't understand why he can take a longer time than me in doing spring cleaning.
I am doing the whole place & him only his room. (:
still hoping he would come down & accompany me after he is done.
But he says he is tired & busy cleaning his room so won't be meeting today.
DISAPPOINTED. :(

Boyf have been spending little time with me already.
We hardly even talk when he is in camp.
& he says he needs me to be more understanding towards him,
as he will be spending more time driving than in our relationship,
& he will commit more in his driving than our relationship.
But sadly, i realize i can't.
Cause when he is out of camp,
i will also only be given less than 24 hours to be with him,
& we hardly converse too.

So please teach me,
how to maintain a relationship without enough time being spend together
& without having enough conversation.
:(

PS:
i had listened to both party story & it's different!
Who should i trust? Who should i listen to?
It's getting irritating! :@

大姨妈 ah 大姨妈!

2010-01-28T13:30:00.004+08:00

Happy Belated 22nd Monthsary Baby! (:

Spent the day with boyf,
bus-ed down to sengkang after work.
The cramps are really killing me!
Fucking hate when 大姨妈 visits me :(
But lucky me, my 大姨妈 doesn't visits me every month! :)

& people!
I am addicted to the ZOO GAME in facebook!
(: So do join me alright?! D:

Had my lunch & just finished doing the 2nd shipment!
Hate shipment that comes by air!
Couldn't cope with the paperwork even though it is suppose to be easier than the paperwork to be done for sea shipment!

So tired & shagged!
All because of 大姨妈!
GOSH :(

There is a limit to everything.

2010-01-25T16:23:00.003+08:00

Friday,
Meet up boyf after work till 12+am receive messages and calls from slutsist & mummy,
then cabbed down to CGH with my fastest speed.
But anyway, things are better now (:

Saturday,
Went to meet boyf at sengkang.
Bused back to Tampines met up with slutsist, & trained to Bugis.
Slutsist did some shopping for her cny clothing and sent her back.
After then, went down sengkang again & majong-ed. & at the start of the game, i lost everything! but glad that at the end of the game i won back everything. (:
& home around 2am. (:

Sunday,
Went to T1, TM & CS.
Bought 1 set of my cny clothing, spent around $70++ :(
home for dinner & sent boyf off around 10pm.
watched tv & off to bed around 12+am.

Monday,
Having Monday Blues!
am so tiring today!
didn't have enough rest recently!
& cny is coming! so stress & broke!
GOSH! 1st time ever hate cny so much! :(
Anyway, did a cny card for the whole day!
guess i will be sleeping early today. (:

Bye♥.

P/S:
I guess i had enough. There is a limit for everything. Including lending a Helping Hand. When i tried so much to help & yet wasn't appreciated.
Every time when i tried so hard to solve a problem that wasn't mine at all,
you created more things for me to solve.
& everything that i had solved on your behalf turn back to square one. (THANKS.)
Happily enjoying the life you are having now, yet i am the one who is there helping you to solve the problem you have created again & again.
Everyone was like telling me you are just making used of me, all the rumors i heard, all the back stabs you have said behind me, i knew it all along, but i just kept shut. & something i don't want to admit but i have to,
you are really very selfish.

- for this part of the post, only people who have been closed enough to me shall know whom i am referring to. For those who doesn't know please keep your mouth shut & don't question.

Love My Hair Now! D:

2010-01-21T11:49:00.004+08:00

Highlighted my hair for only $20.00 at Hougang!
GOSH! *so ugly* ;(
the highlights(copper bronze) doesn't match my base colour (violet red) at all! so, went to re-dye my hair! (ash brown)
& all my highlights turn ash green! D:

again, thinking of having extensions done before Chinese New Year.
but i have already spend like $180++ on my hair already!
& don't think i have anymore spare cash for other stuffs already! :(
So let's hope and pray i could strike 4D or TOTO to get other things done! D: ok lurhs.
just a short post here!
gonna post soon with more pictures uploaded! D:

BYE♥.

& before i go off,
i have got a nice poem to share with you peeps just for laughs!

" Life is so sad
You are so fat
Don't say i am bad
Cause that's a fact "

HAHAHAHAHA!
D:

Colourful post D:

2010-01-13T09:27:00.008+08:00

Hello Bloggy!

I had my hair dyed yesterday after work!
VIOLET+RED,
but seems to be like BLACK instead.

gonna highlight my hair with either PINK or VAMPIRE RED soon! D:

then reach home help bodohsis & mum dye their hair.
finally success in covering mum's white hair!
I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!
D:D:

then was wondering where to go on Saturday with boyf.
town or stay home?

feel like majonging on weekend night! D:
& i really need to get my contact lens soon!
turning blind already!

AND AND LASTLY!
my gum hurts so much!
there is even a crack behind my swollen gum!
FUCKING PAIN OK?!

FUCK MAN :@

2010-01-12T11:12:00.004+08:00

EVERYDAY QUARREL QUARREL & QUARREL!
FUCKING SHIT MAN!
I GIVE UP MAN!
FUCK IT!!!

another quarrel in a month!
getting tired of all this already lurhs!
shit lurhs!

guys are still guys.
wrong don't admit.
whatever they say, they don't even fucking remember.
they just say for the sake of saying man!
& whatever the girl say, they don't fucking put into their heart & mind!
& instead shouting like don't know what at the girl asking , asking & asking!
& they forever got their fucking excuse saying is the girl never say it properly! despite the girl been saying for very long! FUCK RIGHT?!!

I can't get along with him already man!
whatever i say also wrong! i give up also wrong!
whatever shit i did also wrong!

Fuck Man!
If this is because of age gap then fuck it lurh!!

Can't everything just got better?
Or is what we assume that everything got better?

Time needed very much for rest !!

2010-01-11T12:18:00.010+08:00

Hello Bloggy!

I Haven been blogging for a few days! (sorry dearest bloggy.)
I am tired & shag! Fucking need a lot of time for resting man!
Had a busy weekend last week & did not have enough rest :(

For Saturday,
Cancelled the trip to pulau ubin! (disappointed /=) So cabbed down to sengkang, met up with boyf & go up his place. Then met up with Adrian & his gf & cabbed down to Bugis. Had Ajisen for lunch & went iluma for movie.

Rated: 3♥/5♥
Fourth Kind is a movie with many argumentative point.
Seems real but yet there are many questions being pointed out among peeps, even with the "original" recording played together with the current film. But still, believing a not is up to the peeps whom had watched this movie. But personally, i don't. But is still a good movie which causes me to think a lot after walking out of the cinema.

"When a UFO is sighted, it is called an encounter of the first kind. When evidence is collected, it is known as an encounter of the second kind. When contact is made with extraterrestrials, it is the third kind. The next level, abduction, is the fourth kind."

& after movie, we went Captains @ Haji-Lane for Shee-Sha! Had rose+mint this time round as apple is out of stock! After that we cabbed down to GEYLANG for 田鸡粥 & durian! & cabbed back to sengkang again, bathe, rest awhile, slack, eat & i cabbed home @ 5+am.

For Sunday,

Woke up by them at 10+am & i am fucking shagged lurhs! Then rest on the bed while waiting for boyf to come over. Bathe & went down to salon with boyf, as he wanted to have his hair "shave"! Got home, changed & prepare, bus-ed over to kimkim's house for 外婆's 76th birthday celebration! Had buffet, played majong, watch them playing volleyball & join them for basketball & went back around 7+pm, as boyf needs to book in. After sending boyf off, went home & watched 爱 & went off to sleep around 9+pm. Too tired & sleepy already so went to sleep even before talking to boyf. (sorry, boyf.:D)

That's all for my weekend!
& that's all for now :)
Bye♥.

Bad Day ;(

2010-01-06T09:29:00.006+08:00

Hello Bloggy!

JoL am ultra bored to the max! :(
haven been in best of the mood recently!
cock up in workplace, everything just don't go smooth enough man!
& most importantly, i am so tired & sleepy!
Okay, enough complaints from me!
& now i shall share 2 good news with all of yoo!

1stly.)) Boyf had a new nickname from me!
thinking of it, i have been giving him lots of nicknames after we got together!
& the latest one shall be, DUMBDUMB. *HAHA*

2ndly.)) Boyf has finally pass his TP after 4 tries!
So lousy right?! & for the 4th time he take his TP & failed i still thought that was his 5th try! Luckily my mouth isn't 乌鸦嘴! *HAHAHA*

Okay, thats all for now!!
Bye♥

Monday Blues ;

2010-01-04T09:48:00.016+08:00

Hello Bloggy!

I have got a very busy weekend!
But i have been staying home the whole week for family day!
See, I am a good girl okay? *smile*

On NEW YEAR EVE,
Met up boyf at Eunos, cabbed back to sengkang & i cooked our lunch (potato chicken udon)! & wasn't too bad, still edible! *smile* Then went out to count-down around 11+pm at marina square with Adrian & his gf, Boyf & me. Walk around but still cant find a perfect spot to see the fireworks! so in the end we settled down at the opposite of esplanade, & while waiting for the fireworks, i call mei @ 12am! to say happy birthday to her (i am a good sis right? :D) & went off after awhile as we didn't get to see the full fireworks. Actually wanted to go geylang & eat, but in the end, was canceled and went back with boyf's father and bro. Back at sengkang, ate steamboat and went to slack at RC, did the same old thing & back to sleep. D:

On NEW YEAR,
Went home around 4+pm, mummy cook steamboat, so had steamboat again! then relatives and cousins came over & joined us for dinner. Did nothing on new year, but played poker with them. won a few bucks. D: & off to sleep after that.

On 2nd day of NEW YEAR,
went back to work & the married couple (Jennifer & William) send me home! Waited for boyf come over, met up with Adrian after that & went for lunch. Back home, majongg again with mummy. & this time i won a little. D: then ended the game when relatives and cousins came over. Then had steamboat for dinner again then bodohsis and boyf had balloon fight while i playing psp! then bodohsis, boyf and i did some balloon drawings then went over to sengkang for majongg! boyf & i won a little too. Then home around 2+am. Fall asleep as soon as i reach my bed. Can't even remember what i message to boyf which actually made him unhappy. D:

On 3rd day of new year,
Woke up around 1pm+. Was really shagged! then waited for boyf to come over, had steamboat for lunch again & played his psp. Went down to grab some ingredients for steamboat for dinner. & sent boyf off as he need to book in later in the night. & i got really tired & fall asleep around 10+pm.

& as for today,
i am currently in office having serious stomach cramps man! Hate it! Even my gastric hurts so much! Argh! Okays, i guess that's all for now!

Looking forward to this weekend's outing! D:
Bye♥

Happy 2♥1♥ (:

2009-12-31T11:03:00.022+08:00

Hello Bloggy!!

Today is the last day of 2009, 31st December 2009!
So many things happen in this 1 year, so many things still in my mind.
Smiles :) & Tears :'( , Jokes :D & Arguments :@ , Patch (: & Break Ups :(
Went through a lot of obstacles & happiness this year with friends, family & boyf.
& For many people i thought i had lost, came back to me in the end. :D
For many people i never even think that one day they will be the one who is gonna leave me, but in the end they did left me behind.
But whatever it is i am going be strong. :D

For Myself,
2009 is a disappointing year, yet is a year that make me learn & grow.
Going through loads of heartbreaks this year, fall & stand up again by myself.
& really did changed a lot within this year. May it be my thinking or attitude. Things that had never been important to me, which i have been taking granted for, became the most important part in my life. & For the year 2♥1♥, i really hope everything could change for the better! & me to earn big bucks & most importantly! back to school plan & weight losing plan to be a success! :D

For Lau Family,
I still remember how angry they are at me when i sacrifice them for boyf sake. I still remember me skipping my mum's birthday celebration this year at my place whereby everyone is there except her eldest daughter who went to accompany her boyf, & yes i felt guilty. I still remember every single thing dad have been telling me and asking me, which had make me go into deep thoughts. I still remember how disappointed he is in me at that point of time. All i could say is just, sorry :( But i am still glad things got better now compared to then. :D

For Friends & Colleagues,
Thanks to all which have been with me all along, supporting me, lending me your listening ears, talking to me when i am really lost & helping me, guiding me out of the darkest point and of cause sharing your past experience with me. You guys taught me a lot of stuffs in life, but still i am sorry that i cause you guys to be worried about me all these times. & really many many many thanks for standing by me no matter how :D

As for those who choose to leave me behind, i am fine with it. My life still move on without you, i still can stand up without you. & for those who have been spreading my stuffs around, backstabbing me, badmouthing me, you know who you are, i don't want to name you out. But whoever it is, stop whatever you are doing before i turn nasty. I mean, put yourself in my shoe, i think you won't like me to be spreading your private stuffs around too, yahs? (:

For relationship,
I guess everyone who is closed enough to him & me should know what's going on in this 1 year of our relationship yahs? In this 1 year, i guess we had more tears than laughter. Had been having lots of obstacles in our relationship, nearly broke up lots of time, had a lot more quarrels compared to the previous year. Everything causes a deep scar in our heart, causing a 裂痕 in our relationship that can't be mended. We can no longer go back to what we used to be & none of us is putting enough effort to create new loving moments. & so i , personally felt that 27o3o8, which lasted for 21months is in the danger zone of ending. But i guess both of us have been mentally prepared for the day to come. But still, we would hope that miracle would happen again for us, for our relationship, that we are able to walk hand-in-hand till the end of time, like what we had promised on the 3rd monthsary. ♥

& last but not least,
hope everyone could enjoy the countdown today & I am here to wish everyone a
HAPPY NEW YEAR !!
Hoping that we could all have a better & happy year in 2♥1♥!!
BYE.♥

The Wound Would Never Be Heal.

2009-12-30T11:24:00.003+08:00

Hello Bloggy!

Am back posting again & I am ultra bored lurhs! Had been very absent minded recently! Even at work. ;( Something is wrong with my mind man! & the thing that irritates me to the max is, I can’t even type whatever my mind wanted to say! As you can see in my previous entry, there are like ultra loads of typo and missing words here & there! *ROARRR* ultra angry sia!

Ok anyway I’ve been chionging 終極三國 and haven been watching my other 3 Taiwan dramas! (桃花小妹, 下一站, 幸福 & 海派甜心) Time isn’t enough for me man! Can’t finish everything with only 24 hours & I ultra hate it!

& met up with mei yesterday! It seems like we haven been meeting for very long lurhs. Had some updates with each other’s life & did the usual stuff we did every time we meet up! D:D:

Then after I went back, I have told boyf about all my thoughts towards our relationship, good or bad. & I am glad that he could understand and accepted everything I said. & he promise to give me time to sort everything out. So thanks man, because that’s what I really need for now. D: Ok that’s all for now!
BYE♥

I Admit I am Over - Sensitive At Times, But That's Me.

2009-12-29T11:08:00.004+08:00

Hello bloggy!
Miss me or not? D:

Anyway you all could just ignore whatever I am going to post now, as it is just gonna be a FUCKING LONG POST.

I am back blogging again as I feel that there is a need for me to let out some stuffs that have been kept in me, running in my mind & I didn’t know who could I turn to & so here I am. So for people, who hate this, could just close this as it doesn’t really matters to me if anyone reads it or not.

Quarrel with boyf again 2 days ago, which is our 21st monthsary. Shouting like nobody business at the void deck in the night & went home after an hour later. Many memories that I had with him flashing back in my mind. I guess there is no way for us to improve on the relationship anymore. Many things proved that we aren’t suitable at all. We don’t compromise like how we did in the past. We stand firm in our own stand. He got back his man’s dignity and me, fighting for my rights.

As we got together longer, we changed the way like how we used to be treating each other. For me, I don’t feel the same anymore. For him, I don’t know and I don’t want to assume. & for now, I don’t have the trust in him anymore. I don’t have faith in him, in this relationship. I stated very clearly in my previous post when we had similar arguments.
I don’t want to get hurt. Even before we step into this relationship, I made my stand very clear. I don’t ever want to get hurt again & he promised he won’t be the one hurting me. But of cause, i don't deny i hurt him too.

& of course I guess he should be very honored. He is the 1st boyf that made me lost control in front of my siblings. & now I really believe in the saying that, when a guy is wooing a girl, he made promises, he sweet talks, he give in 100%, he do whatever the girl likes. But once he got the girl, all the promises got broken. All the sweet talks became hurtful. All the effort he put in became a dream for the girl. Why would I say this? Cause this is how I feel.

He asked, “Can you talk like an adult? You are talking like a child!” He said, “Think whatever you like, feel whatever you want lurhs hoh, you happy 就好 lurhs hoh!” He said, “You broke your promise, and you said empty promise.” He said, “I have been coming down to Tampines for past 2 weeks!” He asked, “My family don’t need to see me ah?” He asked, “Don’t you think that you are very bo liao?” He said, “I feel that I had spent enough time with you already.” He said, “If sleep over your house is very irritating of me then I won’t be sleeping over!” He asked, “When I am talking & you cut me, don’t yourself rude?!” He asked, “Can’t you make up your mind earlier? Every time also last minute! If you tell me earlier I could have plan right?!” He asked, “What is the difference with saying now and after 12am?” He said, “Say now lurhs, once & for all, I don’t want and I won’t quarrel.” He asked, “Am I wrong to spend my father birthday with him and skipped your family event?!” He said, “You made me like a fool!” He said, “Don’t be silly, for Chinese new year I will be with you all as my family members are going M’sia!”

My mind thinking “FUCK YOU LURHS!” you want to quarrel with me on anniversary then come lorhs. You want to count right? Then let’s count from the day we started in this relationship lorhs! You dare to ask me that question? (“My family doesn’t need see me ah?”) *FUCK SHYT* you only didn’t go home for a day & you dare ask me that question?! I SPEND 1-2MONTHS AT SENGKANG BEFORE YOU GO IN NS, EVERYDAY AFTER WORK I GO OVER SENGKANG! EVERY OFF DAY I STAYED OVER AT YOUR PLACE! MY FAMILY MEMBER DOESN’T EVEN GET TO SEE ME AT HOME AT ALL FOR 1-2MONTHS! & for a day at my place only you dare to ask me that question?! ROFL! & for 2 weekends of coming down to Tampines you feel very proud of it? You want count with me right? Let’s count! How many times had I gone down to SengKang for the past 21 months! How many times had I stayed over at SengKang?!

I changed my mind last minute of not going down to your place, is there anything wrong? Didn’t you inform me last minute too that you won’t be coming over my place for Xmas party cause of your dad birthday?! Isn’t that last minute too?! & for goodness sake! They even prepared your presents lurhs let alone food! So don’t come to me saying, “make me go home alone with full of rice!” when in the 1st place, you didn’t even ask me whether I am going over for dinner a not lurhs okay?! & please you dare ask me since when you give me empty promise? For how many times you gave me empty promise and for how many times I gave you empty promise?! You want compare? ROFL! & you asked me to say whatever I am unhappy with once and for all, you won’t quarrel with me right? Then please lurhs! Aren’t we quarreling once I say out everything? If like that not call quarreling then I don’t know what we are like anymore!

& of course you have got no wrong in staying home for your father birthday celebration! OF COURSE YOU GOT NO FAULT! But are you trying to tell me that your family is more important than mine. Or are you trying to tell me that I am wrong; I am foolish to skip my mother’s birthday for your sake? Like I said before, your whatever family events, gathering, birthday celebration, I HAD TO BE THERE! Why? Cause they, including you, wanted me to me there! & I have to skip all my family events, birthday celebrations, gathering! & you can’t do that for my sake. Of course I didn’t say you are at fault. But I am totally disappointed in you that, whatever I could do and sacrifice for you, you can never do it the same for me too! And I will be looking like a fool listening to your NEXT TIME, NEXT TIME & NEXT TIME! Which don’t even happen? LOLS! & please man! Don’t take my family as spare tyre man! Only when your family got no events, no gathering, not in Singapore you will think of my family. As a boyf of mine, that’s how you treat my family. Really thanks so much huh! You are the best boyf I ever had man!

& please lurhs am I wrong to avoid quarreling on the anniversary since it should be a happy one. & am I wrong to say that we will quarrel if I were to say whatever I am unhappy with? & of course for me I don’t think its wrong of me to say I will say after 12am as I don’t want to quarrel on our anniversary! & do I really sound like a kid this way? I don’t fucking understand man!

& you asked me to think whatever I want, feel whatever I feel right, I happy can le?! OF COURSE I WILL MAN! Cause I fucking understand and know that my bestest boyf doesn’t give a damn to how I feel and what I think! My bestest boyf doesn’t care, aren’t bothered and don’t give a damn about me! & FUCKING SHYT! I have to think and feel for myself to minimize the hurt for myself that you created!

Oh. So with 1 day with me, you feel that’s enough time spent together? Alright then! Thanks for all the shits you had been saying to me when you are in the camp and in the past. Need me to spell out everything? I DON’T FUCKING UNDERSTAND MAN! When we spend everyday together, you can bloody hell tell me that you are sorry that you don’t spend enough time with me. When you are in the camp, you can tell me how sorry you are to not able to spend the day with me when it’s our anniversary! & when you are out of the camp, you can tell me you feel that it’s enough to spend a day with me and a fucking good excuse using your family in front of my mum to go back early like 6pm when you don’t even need to book in on that day & its our anniversary! & WHEN I ASK YOU, YOU SAID YOU DON’T KNOW!! ROFL! Nice one man! So look! Who is the kid huh?! ROFL!

& its not that I want to say you are irritating when you are staying over at my place! But look! I did say that you sleep on my brother’s bed! But my bodohsis says she wants to use the computer! So it would be very cramp for you to sleep on my brother’s bed! So I asked you to sleep on my bed! & what did you say? You said, “so high, I sleep will drop down of the bed lurhs, I so fat later the bed collapse how? Etc.” Don’t you find yourself very naggy?! You don’t like people to nag at you, SO DO I! Then I ask you to sleep on my sister bed, you say I give you attitude! I ask you lurhs. You can say my friend ma fan when she come my house to sleep, she here can’t, there can't. Think about it yourself lurhs. You, yourself said and did the same thing! ROFL!

& you said I was rude to cut you when you are talking right? Please look into the mirror yourself! You cut me too when I am talking! I didn’t say you & you dare to say me?! Are you any much better than me not?! ROFL!

& guys are really guys. Really think that everything will be ok after a night of sleep? I don’t know why there is a sudden change in you over a night. You can be the one shouting at me previous night, and next day, you can take as if nothing had happen before. You continue to talk to me like normal, you didn’t kao-pei me that I didn’t talk to me as much like before, you keep finding stuffs to ask me even though my answer is only ya, okay, orh, oh, got, haven, don’t have, etc. Don’t you find yourself funny? Whatever reasons you have got for this sudden change over a night, it doesn’t applies to me & I am unable to do it. I am not avoiding to talk to you, just that I have got nothing to say anymore.

I don’t know whether you will see this or not, but doesn’t really matters to me. Happy in seeing this update of MY blog, not happy with this update of MY blog, doesn’t really matters to me. & even if you read this, happy or unhappy. Whatever you think, whatever you feel. You 爽就好 lorhs.

Remember what I said on the phone chat? I said, “How you treat me, will be how I treat you.” You said, “Don’t you think you very bo liao meh? Don’t talk like a kid, in a relationship keep on thinking about revenge, revenge & revenge!!” & this is my reply to you. “how you treat me will be how I treat you” this sentence is taught by you. Think back to the quarrel we had around 6months ago. This is what you said to me. I am just repeating what you have said. So when you say I am childish, don’t you think you are worst? Can you are a guy. Whatever you said about me, you did it before. Then why don’t you say yourself as childish? Whatever you use to chak me, I will do it back to you. Not revenge, but teaching a small little boy, not to messed with Jolanda jiejie.

Please re-call your memory, & tell me who is the childish one, the one who doesn’t want to compromise, the petty one, the wrong and the right one. If it’s my fault I won’t deny, if it isn’t then don’t push the blame to me. & if it’s really my fault, explain in logic to me and I will apologize.

As my bestest boyf, you should know that when you are good to me, I will pay you back in double. But if you aren’t good to me, don’t expect me to do the same to you. This relationship isn’t a game of revenge. All I wanted is simple and you choose not to give it to me even when you can. You made the choice; or rather we made the choice, & it was wrong.

I truly regretted to pull you back to me when you choose to leave me again n again. I regretted to hold you close to me again n again. But yet, I can’t bear to let go. Contradicting right? Lols! We have got many things to work on, but yet we no longer choose to put in any effort. I don’t know why we are still on this relationship when none of us give in to each other to maintain this relationship of ours. I won’t deny, the feeling I had for you did faded after all the hurtful quarrels. But maybe you will, I can imagine you saying I putting words into your mouth. But all I can say is, the feeling you gave me isn’t the same anymore. I no longer feel that you love me as much as before. I no longer feel secure beside you. I no longer have trust and faith in whatever you try to sweet talk. & now I can imagine you asking what I want from you now. Lols! But again, I choose not to answer this question. Because I had repeated many times, and I don’t want to repeat anymore.

I tried to give all I had to you, I don’t expect any in return, but I hope this relationship could be fair. Fair to us, to everyone around us. Even though this relationship is ours & not others, but we can’t deny the fact that people around us does affect our relationship. We can’t ignore them. Especially is our family member. & I do know your family matters a lot to you, even though my family side doesn’t mind that you don’t spend time with them, but please, as a human, spare a thought for them and don’t take my family as spare tyre. I seriously HATE that! Just imagine I do that and said that to you and your family, how would you feel? I’m not trying to be selfish here. But I guess I did put in a lot of effort for your family, & I hope you too try to put in some effort for my family. & that would be appreciated.

Okay, enough of my complaints! & I feel much better now!
Bloggy is always my best friend listening to all the complaints I have got! D:D:

Bye♥

JoL says: HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO PUIPUI!

2009-10-06T10:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MY LOVED!!

hopefully everything will go as smooth for your present & future!

& you shall always be my one & only bubbly, ben ben, hubby, puipui, blackpig, boyf!

no matter what happen i will be there for you too! ♥

I LOVE YOU & I WILL ALWAYS DO!!!

okays peeps, more to be update later!

Signing off, loved.

JoL 说: Cough cough go away~ don't ever come back again! :{

2009-09-30T11:27:00.012+08:00

I’m still coughing very badly :’{

Anyway, good news! Today is the end of the month! This means I will be taking my pay soon! BUT! Bad news is, I won’t be taking it today, which means another 1 month pay owned. :’{ But never mind, since I’m still able to survive, so it’s fine with me & it’s a good time for me to save money for my chalet! :}

AND! Since today is the end of September, peeps who haven change their ezlink card to the latest version please do so! As the old version ezlink couldn’t be use anymore starting from 1st of October. & by then for each new version of ezlink card you buy, there will be a charge of $15.00!! So HURRY! Go get your ezlink changed fast! :}

Then Monday, B came over & at the same time pass me back my necklace which I left it at his place, then slack with mei and gary & went off around 11+pm & both of us was fcuking tired lurhs! But good for B that he will only be working for half day the next day & bad for me that I’m working full shift the next day! :’{

Then heard from B that while we were talking on the phone, someone called him up saying happy birthday in advance to him then he just reply, don’t need lurhs & kap! *LOL*, then B was like thinking & saying, for what sia? Did & say so many things behind our back still want to act one close with us for? Like no point lurhs! *LOLS* & of course, I AGREED! So eleven claps for B! :}, Ohh ya, in any case if that someone happens to see my blog & got flared up about it, ~~so sorry man,~~ get this right, it’s my blog! of course I have the right to say whatever I want lurhs dey & especially when it has something to do with my boyfriend & it's a fact. So don’t have to blame anyone for this, of cause not to your closest too. :} Not happy about it? Just close this window, there is a [x] on the top right hand corner, you can just click it & leave. :} :}

Anyway, yesterday went over to B’s place, had dinner together & watched television. Then yesterday was Fann & Christopher‘s wedding night, my eyes were glue to the television for 1 hour, & they are really sweet lurhs! Can’t deny that, I’m very envy! Haha :}

Okays lurhs, that’s all for today? :}
Signing off, loved.

JoL 说: Myone&onlylove is Loved!

2009-09-28T12:20:00.004+08:00

I’m coughing very badly :{
& a Happy belated 18th Monthsary to my love!!
and sadly, on the eve of our anniversary one of B’s friend pass away so B & I went down to the funeral around the evening & off around 11+pm, slacked awhile & cab home around 3+am.

Yesterday, B came over & the four of us (2 couples of the Lau’s) went Michy’s place for their birthday celebration. (anyway, did I mention? last last Sunday, B came over too & went pat’s place for my 外公’s birthday celebration & I really liked the way he interact with my aunt & cousins! :}) Okay, anyway back to topic, before going to Michy’s place we went over TM first & grab a little present for her (hopefully she like it. :}) & after that we cab over to her place & went down to the playground & played, pictures will be post later after I grab from bodohsis! :}

Then B & I bus to Tamp, & my suey-ness starts. Firstly, we wanted to watch Phobia2 but we missed the earlier timeslot so we skip the movie. Secondly, we walk around & train to Bedok as I wanted to buy slippers! But in the end! The shop stops selling the slippers that I wanted! :{ So we walk around finding other shops & see whether they have the slippers not, but in the end, we found nothing! Thirdly, we trained back to pasir ris & wanted to cab back to sengkang as both of us are pretty tired! & after 2 of bus 88 drove past, we are still standing there waiting for the taxi! & many uncles don’t want to stop for us! & after 20-30mins, finally! We saw a taxi, & the auntie was our savior for the day! Thinking that my suey-ness will end? NO!! Because when I’m going back, I waited for 20mins for the next taxi to come! :{ So fucking suey man!

& As for today, hopefully, I won’t be as suey as yesterday!

That’s all for now!
Signing off, loved.

JoL says: YAY :}

2009-09-24T14:02:00.004+08:00

Finally! I am done with the blogskin! Have been doing since the day before! Isn’t it nice? Got a rather hard time figuring out the codes and editing the pictures! But anyway I am happy with the final product! :}

Okay anyway, been MIA from my dearest blog! Got really busy with stuffs and many things happened recently. Seen enough of what kind of person one can be! Be it nice or bad. But anyway I guess b and I had another lesson learnt, isn’t it? Next time we shall just open our eyes bigger to see if the person deserves our help or not! & sorry b, I have grumble a lot to you & did blame you for whatever happened recently and din understand that cause you are closer to them, you could have felt worst. So let’s keep to what we agreed, now only your family, my family, you and I matters, and nothing else. :} So no more nonsense from anyone else, even if it takes your life, it got nothing to do with us! So simply leave us alone from now on. :} (& just a tip for peeps who are in relationship or facing friendship problems, no matter what happen, even if you are the closest one to another, you don’t have any right to interfere the other from having friends with whoever they like, just simply turn the other off more!)

& GOOD NEW PEEPS!
I am having chalet at Costa Sand Resort at Pasir Ris for my 21st birthday! Gonna cost me a bomb but opening a chalet for my birthday has always been a wish of mine. So I gonna save, save & save all I could and hopefully everyone could enjoy to the max on that day! :} Thinking of it makes me go YAY YAY YAY!! Haha :}

Okay, that’s all for now!
BYE-E! :}

JoL says: Be Right Back!

2009-09-23T09:46:00.001+08:00

I'll be back to post once i change my blogskin!
:DD

MISS YOO PEEPS!
<3

JoL says: Omigodd!

2009-09-03T09:23:00.004+08:00

MORNING!!!
I’m really lazy to update my blog already due to having the same routine everyday!(smoke, eat, sleep, play, work, chat on the phone, sms, watch television, read story book.), & I know that I’m having a pathetic boring life now! Re-calling to the life I’m having in the past! Omigod! I missed them so much so much!

& last Saturday, I trained to Northpoint & catch “The Proposal” with puipui, after he reports to Yishun camp. & trained to AngMoKio & had our lunch cum dinner there. & bused back to Sengkang & slacked with the usual cliques. Then I cabbed home at 5am in the morning! & went over to Sengkang again at 8+ in the morning & send puipui to pasir ris and bused over to Patrick’s place & home around evening.

Anyway, I had the worst nightmare ever on Tuesday! Solo in work cause both of them on mc! But the time past so fast! But I work the hell out of me & got damn tired when I reached home! & had a little argument with puipui & fall asleep as soon as we hang the phone.

Then yesterday was a relief! Cause they came back from their medical leave! So I don’t have to be working so hard & still have the time to play around & chit chat! :D & reached home, read finish another book “How Could He Do This by Emma Charles” , another sad story, is talking about a mother & 2 girls of hers’ how they survived through the darkest point of life, having a betrayed husband and father, leaving the impact on a single disabled mum and 2 young girls with little income. & after finish reading the book I felt giddy and fall asleep straight on my bed!

& when I woke up this morning, see puipui’s message. He told me that he got quarantined for 7days. & he is on the way home. So hopefully he gets better already. :D

Okays that’s all for now!
bye-e-e peepos! :DD

JoL says: Happy 17th monthsary. :}

2009-08-27T15:26:00.002+08:00

It’s another rainy day.
At the same time, today is our 17th monthsary.

Don’t know whether it still matters to him a not but still,

Happy 17th monthsary puipui.

Haven been really contacting with him this week, he is busy with his stuffs and I’m keeping myself busy with my stuffs and had been sleeping early too. & just one or two messages a day kept our relationship going for this week, & he might not be booking out this weekend as he might be having test or something? But no worries! I’m still staying strong and might be stronger than before, even without him by my side. :}

Alright been watching movies and series on Funshion! & had a great laugh after all!
& I have finish reading the book “Scarred by Sophie Andrews”, the story made me think back a lot. But it did motivate me a lot to breathe on when times I lost my breath. So it’s greatly encouraged by me to buy the book okay emo-peeps? :}

& peeps who wanted to find out more about “Scarred” before you buy the book, you could visit the website @ http://www.sophieandrews.co.uk/ .

Ok that’s all for now!
Bye peeps!

JoL says: dead in my own world =/

2009-08-25T08:57:00.003+08:00

Morning peeps! I’m back posting!
Went MIA for like 2 weeks? Is anyone out there still reading it not? LOLS!
Anyway, I’m thinking what to blog about cause my life have been quite fuck up!
Many things running in my mind, but I didn’t know what to blog about. =/

& babes and hunk,
Is it true that when guys serve NS, they tend to change a lot?
Or is it girls are the one changing when their boyf is serving NS?

But anyway, I don’t care any more. I will just do the things I feel its right & I am happy about it. Everything, all the memories that we had for 1 year 4months+ will be thrown away. Since I am not allowed to talk about the past, make sure you don’t. & treat me the way you wan me to treat you, this is what you told me but yet you can’t do it. I’ve to change too much just to suit you & in the end this is what I deserved. This is man huh? When your girl treats you badly, treats you like a shit. You gave her everything in the world & tell her she is worth whatever you are doing. & when the girl wanted to treat you better, giving you everything she’s got, helping you to do stuffs when you aren’t around. Hoping that you will feel happier, and heartbreaks are all you could give her. & tell her cause that’s how she treats you first.

To me now, why should I do things for you which I don’t even like it? Why should I treat you better now & let you took me for granted? Why should I believe whatever you have been telling me when you are in the camp & face all this shit alone when you are out of camp? Why should I rush down to meet you when you are booking out on the day just to let you ask me when am I here, I am working the next day? Why should I rush down to meet you when you are booking in on the day just to let you hurt me again by commenting how I dressed up? Why should I quarrel with my dad & mum just because of you? Why should I be bothered when you are having diarrhea & when I am having gastric cramp you throw me alone at the back? Why should I be spending time with your family when you rather wait for me downstairs when I am preparing & not bothered to even come up & say hi? Why can’t I scold vulgarities at you when you scolded me cheebye? Why should I listen to your sorry again & again for this 1 month & listen to you saying you will treat me better for your next book out, but when you are out you treats me the same as your previous book out? Asking myself, are you worth everything I did for you for these few months after our last breakup? I don’t know...

& from now on, I will go back to the life before I know you after I got hurt by all those bastards whom I knew. I will get back on my feet alone, & depend on my own. I will no longer rely on you, depend on you, and not even a single bit.

Don’t ask me if I am ok a not? Cause the LMC in the past will not fall so easily. & don’t ask me if we are ok a not? Cause I don’t know. Don’t ask me if I love you not? It’s because love you too much and that’s why I am hurt that deep by you. & if you realize, I haven been asking you whether you love me a not, reason is not because you keep telling me you love me, but is because, I want you to show me you love me & not through telling me you love me.

But anyway, it’s no longer important already. Not because I don’t want to be with you, or I don’t love you. But I don’t want to ask anything from you & listen to all the sweet talks that will only happen for one day & everything will be back to square one…

JoL says: Enough...

2009-08-10T22:15:00.001+08:00

我只想让一切保持现状，
不想再有任何的改变，
我不想再受伤，不想再哭了...

JoL says: I am so sensitive! so what?

2009-08-06T09:00:00.002+08:00

HELL-OS!

morning everyone!:D

Went down to sk after work, met up with the cliques.
had an argument with puipui ytd through the phone, on the way home.
don't know why i am so sensitive to what he say, but i just lost my mind yesterday!
then reached home, went to bed straight.

As for today, puipui is booking out but not sure is it afternoon or evening.
might not be meeting him today & tomorrow. Let's see how the wind blow today. :D

Ok that's all for today!
a rather short post for the day,
& ohh ya! i have been playing restaurant city!
& i need BACON, PASTA & EGG for trade!
so any kind-hearted peeps wana trade me?! :D

BYEE-E!!:D

JoL says: Lost control of my emotions.:'(

2009-08-03T09:50:00.008+08:00

:'(

再也控制不了我自己的情绪，
压力好大，好烦，
内心里好难过，好无奈，好无助..
不知道该怎么办，不知该做什么让自己开心
好希望现在他能在我的身边，
像以前那样，在我的身边..

可是他不可以.....

JoL says: I am upset deep in,who fucking uds?! (T_T)

2009-08-02T21:03:00.008+08:00

HELL-OS!
I've cut my hair! & so fucking short now lurhs!
So upset that my tail is gone :'(

Anyway! I am thinking of getting a diploma certificate!
But not very sure which course should i enter.
Whether is it a Accounting? Psychology? Hopitality & tourism? Logistic?
Which should i choose? Any idea from anyone? :D

Okay, i think thats all!
Gonna check out the private school courses & fees!

& wait for puipui's call & msg!

HE HAVEN CALL ME FOR THE DAY! :'(

NIGHTS ALL!(L)

-EDITED-

I DON'T WAN TO WAIT ANYMORE!!!

NABEICB!!!!!!

I DON'T WANT CARE! DON'T WANT BOTHER ANYMORE!!!

CB!!!!!!!

HATE IT LURH FUCK!!!

REALLY FUCKING HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*I AM RUNNING AWAY FROM EVERYTHING!EVERYONE!*

BYEE-EE!

JoL says: Getting used to the life w/o you by my side :D

2009-08-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

HELL-OS!

I haven been blogging for the past 2 days! I am so sorry peeps!
Anyway! Puipui is going to book out soon & I had prepared a surprise for him! :D

Just came back from sengkang. Did the same old thing again! But before that, I slept on puipui’s bed! But still, I didn’t dream of him! But anyway! Aunty was so cute lurhs! Saw me then keep smiling & smiling! I guess she really miss puipui a lot! Then some more I resemble puipui a lot! Anyway, today is just like a normal day. Then bused to pasir ris IKEA & cabbed home.

Then wanted to play viwawa with cliques! But I am so fucking sleepy! GOSH!
Okay, I think I that’s all!
Nights everyone! (L)

*lights off*

BYE-EE!

JoL says: I am still waiting :'(

2009-07-30T09:56:00.003+08:00

HELL-OS!

Morning peepos! Here I am again!
A rather happy start for me! Anyway! I will be going for an interview today @ tannery road! Hopefully every thing goes well & I could get the job! :D

& since I have never failed any interview before, I hope this is not the 1st one yah? Wish me luck k?!

Remember 1 year 4months ago, I came over to Independent for interview, even though I was with puipui at that moment, but he is busy with his studies, so he didn’t accompany me for the interview, but nonetheless, he called me up & keep on messaging me to stop me from getting nervous & so till my interview ended.

1 year 4months later, he is in the camp so he couldn’t accompany me to the interview and no messages, no calls keeping me cool. ;’( Haiish.

Everyday waiting for his calls, his messages, I know he is in the camp, I know he has got no choice cause he has to serve the NS. Even though he says he miss me a lot, love me a lot, he has to find chances to talk to me, message me. I know he is very 辛苦, very tired. I tried to be understanding enough to not 烦 him with my stuffs when he is in the camp, listening to his says & so on. But I am really tired to keep waiting, everyday have to wait like an idiot. Like I say in my previous post, even if I have any unhappy thing on that day, I can’t call him, even if I text him, he won’t be able to reply. I guess for this 1 year+ I really relied a lot on him which none of us realize it at all. :’(

Haiish, I really wished that he could be beside me again. I don’t know why I am turning crazy already, it’s just 14 days. & now just for another 8 days, he will be back, but I don’t know why I just can’t take it anymore. ;’(

haiish…

Sorry for the above rantings! Just need to rant out everything & will be ok soon.

BYE-EE!

JoL says: I am sick & tired! :(

2009-07-29T10:31:00.000+08:00

HELL-OS!

Another post! I am such a good girl right?
Been posting everyday! But is someone out there reading? LOLS!

Fall sick yesterday! Thought about things that puipui did for me every time. Thinking back every time when I fall sick, puipui will be beside me looking after me no matter how tired he is, making me laugh when I am sick so I could feel better, using ice water to cool my temperature down, buy porridge for me to eat, tap me to sleep, cover me with blanket, helping me to massage & feeding me with medicine. Simple actions, but made me the happiest girl on earth. :D
Then yesterday, meet up with pearlyn, huiyu & adrian! Did the same old thing again & homed around 10+pm. Tried hard to sleep, tried hard not to feel sad, tried hard to swallow my tears down my throat & fell asleep.

& here I am in the office blogging after finishing my work & anyway! I’ve send out my resume to 10+ companies! Hopefully they could get back to me soon! :D

Okay, that’s all for today!

BYE-E!

JoL says: 9 more days!

2009-07-28T09:37:00.005+08:00

HELL-OS!

Morning peeps!
Spend my monthsary with the usual cliques (pearlyn, felicia, adrian & huiyu), as puipui is stuck in the camp. Met up with pearlyn at TP, then walk towards 851 and then wait for huiyu & fel. Went over to 844 & 打包 food & went to 842 and slack, play poker and etc.
Then adrian came over to find us. & they send me home around 10+pm.

I really appreciate a lot that cause after puipui got into NS, they have been spending time with me, sending me messages, showing me care & concern, giving me support, even though they are all busy with their stuffs. :D Really a million thanks to my cliques! Love you guys! :D

Then puipui have been in camp for 5 days already! He have lost his voice & been very busy with his training. Then he have been complaining to me how tired he is and sharing his fun in bunk with me. :D Then now I can only wait quietly for his return, right puipui? ;)

Ok lurhs that’s all peeps!

BYE-EE!

JoL says: IMISSMYPUIPUI!!

2009-07-27T09:52:00.005+08:00

HELL-OS!

Back blogging again! Trying very hard to keep my blog active, so it won’t be dead before puipui come back to my side!

25th July -SATURDAY

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ADRIAN BRO! :D

Went down to sengkang and slack with the usual cliques (pearlyn, adrian & huiyu).
Played poker but no longer as noisy as before, this shows how noisy puipui is! :D
When I was on the way down to sengkang, I cried all the way the minute I go into bus 291 & down from bus 88. Every where I go, I see puipui face! I know you guys must be thinking that I am crazy! he is just going away for 2 weeks not forever! But I am just missing him too much & we have been sticking to each other for 15 months! Never leave me before! ;’( Then cabbed home around 12+, cried again! haiish.

26th July- SUNDAY

Woke up around 10, did all the house chores. But when Mr. Lau is in I still got nagged. But never mind. Then went out with bodohsis, meet up with stupid kor and Wendy at TM, and proceed to SAFRA! Wanted to play pool but was fully booked! Then they wanted to go bowling, but also fully booked! So walked to mac & had double fillet meal! & was DAMN FILLING! & after that went home, waited for puipui’s call, did nothing and interviewed the couple at home! Haha! :D

27th July- MONDAY

HAPPY 16th MONTHSARY PUIPUI!

Haiish, this is another anniversary that you couldn’t spend it with me. (DAMN SAD!)
But I couldn’t do anything. Been washing my face with tears whenever I thought of you, whenever I need you but I couldn’t call you, whenever I miss you and text you but you couldn’t reply. :’(

I have been looking like an idiot! Every time my phone rings, I hope you are the one who is calling me. Every time my phone vibrates, I hope you are the one who is messaging me. When it’s not you, I am damn sad! But when it’s you, I am damn happy! Haiish, another 10days and I would be seeing you! I really hope the time could fly faster! I am really missing you that fucking hard! & it’s nobody who could replace you. ILOVEYOU! :’(

IMISSYOURIDIOTICFACE! :'(

JoL say: 14days of separation :'(

2009-07-24T20:01:00.003+08:00

RE: COUNTING DOWN TO 14 DAYS (13 NIGHTS) TILL I COULD HUG PUIPUI!

HELL-OS!

I haven been blogging lately due to my laziness, tiredness, busyness!
& now, since puipui has already book in, I am here blogging!

& I have been meeting up with puipui before he gets into camp.
Trying to spend more time with him, even though it’s not just the two of us but at least he is beside me & I could feel him. :D

& today is the day; puipui book in. & it would be for 2 weeks that I am not able to see him, just with a little of sms and a few minutes of phone chat with him. & I guess I have to survive this torture! & of cause, this means that there will be no more bedtime stories for me, no-one to let me bully, no-one to listen to my rubbish, no-one to cheer me up when I am down, no-one to say stupid jokes to let me laugh, no-one to feed me till fatter, no-one to let me vent anger on, no-one to give me a hug & kiss everyday, no-one to talk me to sleep, no-one to sayang me, no-one to kip sms me, no-one to keep calling me, no-one to let me bite, no-one to accompany me and most importantly! No-one will shower me with Tender, Loving, Care. :’(

& even though puipui called me up a few times during my work, but I only managed to talk to him for like 2-3 minutes and we have to hang the phone. ;( Hopefully, everything goes well for him during his NS period. & now I don’t know I need wait for how long for his call and message lerhs. Hope he can contact me soon? Cause, I REALLY FUCKING MISS HIM!!

& puipui say, he could only book out on 6th Aug (Thursday), which is like 14days later! And book in on 9th Aug (Sunday). & this means, he couldn’t spend National Day with me! & no fireworks for him and me! :’( I AM SO SAD! ;( But there is nothing we can do, isn’t it? ;’(

Lastly, people I tried to blog a few times today, but I failed! Is BLOGGER down or something? There is an error that everything went hay-y-yer! Thus, I couldn’t type at all. ;’( So please help me out with it if you got any idea about this k? :D

BYE-EE!

JoL says: 2 more weeks.

2009-07-11T09:40:00.004+08:00

MORN-NING!

Met up with the usual cliques yesterday at sengkang! Did the same old thing & everyone was damn tired lurhs! Been sleeping very late recent. But I don’t mind, as long as I think is worth it and fun lurhs!

Then today, woke up at 7.30am! Rush down to work and now having gastric! Hate this man! Then later meet up with the usual cliques again. Hope everything goes well eh?

& saw the above pic?

I want to watch ‘The Haunting in Connecticut’! Ok, that’s all for now!

BYE-E,
LOVED!

JoL says: Ban You Arsehole!

2009-07-10T09:29:00.001+08:00

MORN-ING!
Surprised to see me so early eh? Just came in to ban the following IP address:-

218.186.13.227
218.186.13.231
218.186.13.243

Anyway just a note, friends and peeps who want to tag me please tag with your own name or nicknames that I know. I would appreciate it so much yah? :D

Met up with the usual clique (huiyu, adrian, pearlyn, felicia and puipui) at 851 yesterday. But since there are too many cockroaches around, so we move to 843. :D did the same usual stuff, we joke, we play, we had fun, we fight, we quarrel then went home around 1 in the morning. :D

As for today, will be meeting them again tonight. But I might be going down sengkang instead of them coming over Tampines. So let’s see how the wind blows. :D

BYE-E!

JoL says: Lots of pictures!

2009-07-09T12:40:00.009+08:00

HELL-LO!

Sorry bloggy for the delay of updates happening in my life!
And since I am free now, I shall update with more pictures and less wordings.
So I shall let the picture do the talking yah? :D

Back from chalet (26-29Jun). *I know I am kind of lag, but please bear with it!*
The chalet was a success. So a hundred thanks to the following people for coming and helped out in finishing all the food and prepare the stuffs. :-

huiyu (sis), adrian (bro), felicia (mei), gary (mei-fu), moses (cowpapa), moses’di (uncle), hanwei (laodi), aloysius (bro), eden, pearlyn (sister), terence, jennifer, william, carrie, mattew, miss liu, mr teo, lawrence (puipui) and jolanda (me)!

Had a lot of fun during the chalet. But really got very tired after that!
& oh ya! i finally sat on the ferry wheel! :D

Then sis, bro, puipui and I (the usual clique) have been slacking. Then mei and laodi joined in too.
Played poker, chat, laugh, fight, and had fun! :D

Think that’s all for now.
Meeting mei and sis later on, and slack around my place.

BYE-E!

JoL says: I AM REALLY HAPPY!

2009-07-01T17:19:00.002+08:00

HELLOS!
anyone missing me? :D
i am back from the chalet!:D
shall update again about the chalet & more!
for now i am just here to leave some words so my blog won't be so dead!
:D

okays!
cya guys!
shall really blog tomorrow or the day after!!

ILOVEYOOB!
& HAPPY BELATED 15monthsary!
:D

JoL says: ILOVETHEPEOPLEAROUNDMEWHOISTRUETOME!

2009-06-22T11:04:00.009+08:00

Saturday, went out with B, huiyu (sis) and adrian (bro) to Teo Heng!
Sang for 2 hours and went for our dinner. Had ½ spring chicken set meal & taste real bad. Then waited for pearlyn and bused back to sengkang. Reached, went back to B’s house and bathed, then went down RC to slack, joke, play poker, laugh and fight! But don’t want to go into details. (:

Went home around six in the morning, reached home, changed, and fall asleep.
Woke up in the noon, eat, bathe, vacuum floor, 包红包 for MrLau, buy viceroy ice, green-tea and walked over to patrick’s house to celebrate Father's Day, around one and the weather is so fucking hot lurhs dey!

And after 10 minutes of walk under the hot sun! We finally reached! Then eat, played with the dog and MAJONG-ED with pat, ken and wendy. And guessed what?! I only managed to play 3 rounds with them in 3o minutes! The slowest mahjong game I have ever played can?! Not very 爽 but was ok with it, because of my 青一色! :D

Then went off around four, walked out and cabbed over to sengkang again. Met B and ahjie at RC, took photos (do we look like one family? LOLS), smoked and went back to my 2nd home, their house! Then watched horror and went down to slack, play poker, laugh, joke with huiyu (sis) then adrian (bro) joined us and they went off around twelve and after a toilet break at B’s house I cabbed home.

Reached home, called B and fall asleep soon after we hang the phone.
All of us had a very tired weekend! But yet the happiest moments for all of us!
:D

JoL says: I Will Always Be Your Princess.

2009-06-20T09:24:00.006+08:00

:D
I am back & I have been very happy recently!
& how I wish things could always be like this, correct b?

Anyway, Wednesday night met up with b & fel. Pass over b my stuffs and his tops, and then b surprised me with a present! Something that I need so much and want so much! Really love him so much man! & really got very touched & stunned by him! :D

Then Thursday night, met up with fel, hanwei, b, and then sis & bro came over to 845 to join us. Then played poker, smoke & joke and backed home.

Yesterday met up with b, sister, sis, bro and the usual slacking kaki at sengkang, played poker again, smoke again, chat again and went off around 4am. Reach home rest awhile and off to work! :D

As for today, will be meeting b, sis and bro again at sengkang and off to katong. :D
Hopefully today will be another nice day out with them! :D

That’s all for now!
Bye Loved!

2009-06-15T04:33:00.005+08:00

Saturday*

Went out on a OUTING!!! =))

With DeeDee,Me,Adrian*StickMan*, Sis*HuiYu*,Aloy,PartTime*Malcom*

and Mayi come too.

Watch Drag Me To Hell,

quite nice 3/5

Sound Effect gonna burst ur drums,but e plot is quite expected.

But ok worth watchin for someLaughters.

After Movie Mayi went home nt feeling well.

So The Group Of Us went over to MS YukiYaki.

We Eat,

We Slack,

We Talk,

We Joke,

We Laugh,

We're Done LOLS.

So full can still play e ice cream game wow =)) damm heng LOLS.

Went to meet Fel as DeeDee say de thn chatted awhile we got off

After tat went down to Bugis Dee bought some stuffs and waited for Fel

to come, went StarBucks grab a drink took bus 80 back to SK.

Slack till Sunday, everyone tired fk lols CRASH STRAIGHT.....

Love You Dee Dee =))

If I'm able to choose again,

I'll still Be with you wherever You go,

and Stay By You FIRMLY.

Love You My Little Angel =))

Lawrence Peh

JoL. says: I am really HAPPY !

2009-06-13T10:08:00.003+08:00

Morning Loves!

Yesterday, mei came over and look for me at 856A, and then 2 of us are like crazy woman lurhs, then keep talking and talking non-stop! Oh my mama, I am like really too talkative but yet we enjoyed lurhs while waiting for ah b, sis, laodi and 2 of his other friends. But at the same time got very thirsty, then I don’t know why got very high! Then I started to move here move there move everywhere, as if I am a monkey lurhs! :D

Then finally! Ah b and sis came over! Then like shit one lorhs, ah b and sis lied to us lurhs, saying sis not coming liao, then when saw ah b walked over with sis, I shouted! “LIAR!” like so funny lurhs. then after they reached, we continue to wait for laodi and his friends. Then finally! they came! Like so long lorhs =.= then because the playground is too small we changed to 843 while waiting for bro to cab over. And when finally, all came over liao, we got so noisy till I think if I am staying there I will just shout down “KAOPEI LURHS!” haha.

And recently, the police at Tamp is like so on one lorhs! keep on patrolling then we are like having illegal gathering there! LOLS! then ah b and bro went one corner chat and laodi’s friend also went one corner chat, then sis don’t know walk till where. Then throw me, mei and laodi there =.= then after awhile laodi’s friend came back, then ah b and bro ask me go over then I am like so proud of myself! It’s like after so long someone say I am good in counseling people! haha! :D It’s like can you imagine how happy am I? :D

Then after awhile mei, laodi and his friends went off. So throw me with ah b, bro and sis. =.= then went to 847 then slack, listen to song, chat, smoke, laugh, emo and most important! GOSSIPS! :D

Then we went off around 2+am? And then after sending me home, ah b, bro and sis cab home. :D And the minute I reach home, I *poom* drop dead on my bed! But ah b called me then chat awhile then ask him to 哄我睡觉, so again, he say bed-time story for me.
“ The Cinderella.” and till I fall asleep. :D

And frankly speaking, I am really really really very happy yesterday. And I really really really hope things could always be like that. “HAPPY.” :D

JoL.says: I am very fragile too...

2009-06-12T09:36:00.003+08:00

Morning loves.

Yesterday quarreled with ah b, cried all the way home, shouting, screaming like nobody business, just want to let myself feel better.
Then later in evening, went out to meet fel, part-time, laodi and laodi’s friend at 856A playground. Those guys really cheer us up a lot, but they are always talking about NS!
It’s so BORING! But its okay, at least we did laugh, did smile do we? :D

Anyway, after laodi and his friend went off, we catch up with part-time a little, and he really lost a lot of weight in NS lurhs! Oh man, I am so envy lurhs can? Cause I am getting fatter and fatter! It’s time to lose some weight lurhs, but I don’t really have the motivation to nowadays. :P

Then walked home myself, thinking a lot of what’s happening between ah b and me.
Did some reflection? Did I? I don’t know, but all I want is the same as what ah b wanted from me, or could put it in a way, our aim is the same, which is to stay happily together, enjoy when we are together. Maybe I put too much of stuffs into consideration before making decisions, before enjoying myself or ourselves. ;(

Reached home, gastric hurts like hell! So I had a late dinner again. (if continue like this, I got no idea when then I can slim down.) After “dinner”, straight away give ah b a call and we quarreled again. Ah b cried in the phone, venting all the feelings, hurts that he had in him for a long time. And I don’t know why, I felt envy of him. Because throughout the phone call, I am also deep hurt inside. I wanted to cry out so much so much! But yet, I got no tears, and I asked him ”哭的感觉很好吧?” and he cried harder, louder, saying “ when a guy cries, which mean he got very chng xim.” and when I heard this, I finally broke down into tears. Somehow I find that, we are going no where. And before I called him, I asked him a few questions because somehow I find that I am the only one who can give him so much stress and so much hurt till he broke down and I don’t want it that way, but somehow, he misunderstood me, he says, I say that because I want to leave him, because I don’t love him. But, that’s not the way but it’s just too late to say anything anymore, because I know, he no longer can listen to what I am saying anymore. And no matter how I explain to tell him that he had misunderstood what I say, he doesn’t put it into his head anymore.

Sigh~ I just hope things could be better if I am totally changed, I just hope this relationship, which we try so hard doesn’t go into the drain. If everything could be better, both of us are really happy, I am willing to change, willing to give in no matter what, willing to do anything for you, as long as you are happy. I can finally understand now why, why you started to treat me so differently from before, like what you say, your sub-conscious mind telling to do things this way to protect yourself from getting hurt. But all I can say is, whatever I did, whatever I say, whatever I act like, my wall set that high no matter towards who, no matter is friend, family or you, is the same. The reason why I am like this is because, anyone from any category of whom I know, once hurt me that deep before. I have my fear, I no longer want to cry alone in the dark when no people care and bothered, no people consoling me, and no people understand the hurt I am having, no people listening to my sorrows, no-one could heal that hurt that each individual give me.

I am like that from day one you know me. I am always the same. I am always that fragile who is acting strong and independent. I also hope to lead a normal and simple life like others, I also want to show people that I am fragile, but do I have a choice? Can I do that too?

I know and I understand, that even though you are a guy, you are also a human, you also have feelings and will get hurt, angry, depressed too. But no matter how fragile a guy is, comparing to a girl, he is still stronger. Isn’t it? I am not saying that whatever I said, I am right or you must agree with me, but I need to tell you that, from outer look, I might look strong and independent, but deep inside me, I am those type of girls, once you touched, I will break. I am that fragile. ;(

And quoting from what you say, let bygones be bygones. True. I should forget my past, I should forget how much each individual had hurt me, 属话说得好，我不应该因为一棵树，毁掉整个森林. But I already have the fear in me. No matter how I do, I can’t bring myself to forget the fear, I can’t put down or could put it in a way I don’t know how. I need someone who is strong enough to standby me and helped me out. But now, I don’t know if you still willing to be the one who standby me and helped up a not. Because I know at this point of time, when you are protecting yourself from all hurts, you are tired, you must be fragile.

Haiis, I guess that’s all from me?
Bye Loves. (:

"当一个女人哭，是因为她很累了。
当一个男人哭，是因为他死心了。
但是当一个女人，想哭却哭不出来，是因为她真得太痛了。"

JoL says: She wants to feel better!

2009-06-11T10:37:00.003+08:00

hehes, done with my new blogskin~
new tag, new link! everything is new!
hopefully my life is new tooo!

anyway love my current skin alot~
took so much time & so many days to do lorhs!
hais, felt so tired after finish doing! =.="
finish dg everything liao~ finally can take a good rest! :-D
budd i gt nth to do in offce now~
so chatting mei now lurhs!

& its eeryy! cosh we are facing same problem again n again!
LOLS!
okays, imm random =.="

then ytd cow papa called me!
chat for an hour, chat about many stuffs lurhs.
then he give me alot of advice, counsel me, cheer me up lorhs.
then i tink i really think alot barhs? so suan liao~ :D
i guess imm happier like tat ?
at least i know i wnt regret in the end ?

bud of cosh i know cowpapa 是为了我好 bud i guess imm happier this way for current?

cosh no ppl can predict what will happen in future barhs? :-D

k lurhs tats all!
& PEEEPOS!! RELINK ME & TAGGG ME LURHS!
buaibuaii~~

JoL says: She Miss Those Days. :(

2009-06-10T09:27:00.003+08:00

For some reasons,
imm very disappointed now..
felt so terrible isn't it? JoL.? asking myself...
mayb some things are really not what i could control isn't it?
mayb some things are really not fated isn't it?
mayb i should go emo one corner barhs..

anyway!
met up with laodi ytd! LOLS
came over to slack awhile b4 him leaving to meet his frens.
i guess both of us are really tired lurhs!
kip yawning & yawning~
budd anyway! i really miss those days whereby we slack, chat, xia-lan, guai-lan, smoke, gossips, console each other, laugh, cry, emo, have fun tgt!
eventhough tat period of them we are all single, budd at least we are happpyyyy!
:-D

k lurhs tats all (:
buaiibuaii~

Jol's Feelings & Thoughts.

2009-06-09T10:18:00.004+08:00

working on my new blogskin~
not sure if i wana open a new personal blog or haf a change in this link?
can't decide yet~

anyway, ytd went popular & bought 2 storybooks !
& i purposely go buy those sibei sad story so i could cry out lurhs.
buddd in the end i only teary.. zZz
so hard to cry recently, felt so terrible!
as no way to vent my anger anymore. haiish. :'(

k lurhs, tats all peeps!
:D

我真的好辛苦，痛得我好累可是却无法哭泣，
每一次吵架我的心都痛得无法呼吸，
每一次吵架你都会说些让我绝望的话，
算了，我真的不想管了，
现在开始我只会做一个女朋友该做的东西，
其他的我不想管了，
我的心真的麻木了.....

Sometimes, i really feel no point anymore...

2009-06-08T14:57:00.004+08:00

(:

heya! back blogging~ hohoho~
been tonning over at sengkang, been eating late DINNER!
& i really mean by late , cosh is like ard 2-3am? =.="
which should be supper~ budd actually is dinner =.="
budd is due to, my breakfast is at 4pm =.="
LOLS.

kays anyway,
i tink both mei & me finally had the chance to meet LAODI!
like omfg! so long nvr see him liao zZz
dhen toktoktoktoktok~ & he is forever the SAME man! WHAHHAHAHA
& yay~ we 've gt a driver~ WHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
then met up with him for sat & sun~
budd cosh he too guai ~ went home too early~
so cant send me home! ROARRR!!!
so still have to cab home in the end =.="

& today took 1/2 day~
cosh really too tired liao!
& nw imm back in office & work!

:DD

( overall had a good weekend, budd did quarel with ahb AGAIN!! )
SO SIAN AHHHHH!!
!@#$%^&&^%$#!

2009-06-04T03:48:00.004+08:00

Such a weird day, got up @ 230 T_T,

so late so late omg hahas,

text dee e 1st thing and poof went to bath,

after i'm done text dee dee agn tellin her i'm gng to work =)).

Upon arrival @ bus stop it seems lyk every typical day,

as usual went onboard Bus 80 =)).

went up to the upper deck on e right side near e end where the bell is ,

thn gt a couple took e sit so i sat 2 seat infront of them.

thn whn i sitted i heard e guy said: smoke wad shit sio think he so cool.

i didnt bother as maybe he's nt refering to me .

thn he continued:smoke wad Marlboro Menthol,

think he si bei pai kia ar?

i got up went to him and fuck him upside down,

*alot of vuglarities so better nt say out*

thn he shut up and ask : You play where one?

I replied: Singapore la wad age le still play pai kia.

*continue fkin him*

Thn he shut up and Apologised,

so i forget it and said:

Dun Try to be funny to ppl u dunno,

dun nid to action infront of ur GF,

a REAL MAN wont find trouble with his GF ard.

He apologised agn...

So as usual i went to take 158 to Aljunied Chap Lao*circuit road*

went to papa stall n help out.

lalala~ a day's over.

Went home walk ah kao, bathed called dee dee,

had a tiff agn =(( so sorry i didnt control my temper if nt we wont quarrel=/

Wad's done cannot be undo i'm really Sorry Gal =((

love you loads !!!(\)(~.~)(/)!!!~

Lawrence

SOMEONE PLEASE?

2009-06-03T20:19:00.003+08:00

2nd post in a day,
but it's just another short post lurhs. LOLS.
sian i guess i nid go for check up already~
been getting more n more giddy very often, single side headache,
vomit, laosai & TIREDDD!
SOMEONE PUT ME INTO SLEEP YAH?.

now when imm weak , i realise i have got nothing left by my side anymore.
no-one is here with me to hold me up again.

JoL is RANDOM!

2009-06-03T14:29:00.003+08:00

Full of thoughts,
but don't know what i am thinking.

Felt terrible,
but don't know what makes me have such a feeling.

Need a check up in my mental status soon,
REAL REAL SOON.

:-D

2009-06-03T01:37:00.002+08:00

Life is always full of surprise =)),

some are good while other SUCKS.

aHHhhhhh!!!

HAO FAN AR!!!

hMmpx been tellin every1 ard me nt to fan as

Fan Nao is Zhi Zi Zao De...

but dunno y i'm being damm stressed and pumped up tis 2 weeks

???

Wad's wrong with myself?

I dun think i'm myself recently,

always pondering bout things which does nt nid to b worrying bout,

yet not thinking of things tat nid to b done soon.

WTF wrong?

hahas who cares?

who knows?

Lawrence

2009-05-29T02:26:00.003+08:00

There is no remedy for love but to love more.

– H.D. Thoreau

Years and Months,Days and Night,
Hour and Minute,
Seconds and Moments,
It does not matter hw long it is,
but hw precious it is,
that's Love.
-TRGeneral

When you Love till there's no Love there's HATE,

When you Hate till there's no Hate there's LOVE.

-Radio

In life, God always give Human a Choice,

It's the choice we made ourself either to Love or to Hate.

-TRGeneral

Ay me!...for aught that I could ever read,Could ever hear by tale or history,The course of true love never did run smooth.

– Shakespeare

Love is Sweet yet bitter,

enjoyable yet saddening,

loving yet hateful,

happy yet sad,

But it does not matter what it is,

it's the sweet memories that matters the most.

-TRGeneral

Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit.

-Peter Ustinov

2 soul, not knowing each other exsistence,

not knowing each other have lived on earth,

till they meet and romance,

they never wanted to be seperated again,

that's Love.

-TRGeneral

Time is too slow for those who wait,too swift for those who fear,too long for those who grieve,too short for those who rejoice,but for those who love, time is eternity.
-Katrina's Sun

Love is not only about Loving,Caring and Concern,

it's also about Forgiving,Forgetting,

That's what make it True.

-TRGeneral

Love is that condition in which The happiness of another person Is essential to your own. ~Robert A. Heinlein

She felt that He is simply not concerned anymore and ended it,

but She didnt know that when She ended ,

He started.

-TRGeneral

If God gave me a choice to live life again,

i wont regret and wont look back,

i'll do the same as for you're now beside me.

The Only regret i have is not seeing you smiling like before,

not being as happy as before,

not being as blessed as before

I can only blame myself as it is I who made the choice in the process

that led to quarrels and arguement.

I can only pray that One day WE'll be Loved again.

-TRGeneral

*Love, 1 word 4 letters,

Simple yet complicated,

stuffed with emotions, decisions,choices,feelings.....

IDK wad to sae for wad happen so far till nw...

Let Nature Takes It's Course =))

while waiting fer you i'm blogging ><

Lawrence...

这是你曾经给过我的过去

2009-05-28T20:59:00.006+08:00

"(♥)
- Hahas, i whr got MIA, is you nvr find me lor =X... okaes TC.. see ya

(♥)
- zZz wads wif the you still alive thing?
HELLO of cox I'm ALIVE hahas, i'm fine. Wad bout you? Still MIA arhs

(♥)
- Idiot -__- i'm not a CAB la .....

(♥)
- STM=You= Super Toot Memory =Xx

(♥)
- -__- you then a Toot toot Bendan =Xx

(♥)
- Bendan tis is wad u wan, so after tis testimonial dun call me names le...
Big bendan lei u -___-

(♥)
- You so gud is it because you're drunk tat's why =Xx hahas

(♥)
- Haiyo for the last tym, I'm NOT A C-A-B!!!...
ok la find 1 day i go find you ...
Blow a twister over to eu.?

(♥)
- I Wont let any Harm come near You de, My Fist are Meant to PROTECT You de.
Yes, i'll Jy and hope you'll too x) Nvr Give Up
Love You*Muacks*

(♥)
- Orh, I LOVE YOU TOO xP,& I'll Owae Remember It derhs x))

(♥)
- Fen Hong Zhu Bao Bao,
I will spend Every Spare Time tat i have
with you de k?
I Miss You Badly too x((
Sry But I've Got No choice =(
I Love You Deepx2 x)
TooT TooT

(♥)
- Diaosss, Dun b so EMO whn i'm nt around k?
JYJY...
^^ ILU Fen Hong Zhu
TooT TooT

(♥)
-x))
I'll Miss you every second,
every Minute,
every hour,
every year,
every lightyear.
and everytime.
^^ Love You Too

(♥)
- Omg lols, liddat u oso noe =3=
Yao Shu lei u , Gt so many things nvr tell me
Dig out everythin soon x))
Love You Super DeepDeep
TooT TooT

(♥)
- No Luhs -__- i dont FLIRT DE OK?
Bao Bei Ni Yao Zao Gu Zhi Zi Hor?

Ai Si Ni De
TooT TooT

(♥)
- Dear Dear Take Care Of ur HEALTH whn i'm nt there k?
I LOVE YOU x))

TooT TooT

(♥)
- Lao Po,zhuWIFEY...
Thks for being SO SWEET !!!
I'm Lovin u more and more as each day pass ...

*MUACKS ILOVEUBEU~

Loving You ALWAYS 24/7
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- zhuWIFEY

You're such a SHA GUA
Relationship is bound to meet with some ups&downs de, it's about gives and takes lyk hw a person fly a kite, if one pull TOO HARD it'll SNAP, if it's LOOSEN it'll fly away. My Trust for you is there x)

(♥)
- Those are nt call suffering but are known as TesT Of Love, it is there to test us de wor and we've made it throught so far.
These TesTs are nth compare to my love for you. =))

FATE has brought us TOGETHER and it is up to us if we can PULL THROUGH TOGETHER, i'm more then willing to find FOREVER with you x)
MUACKS!

Loving You Always 24/7
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- Lao po, nxt tym dun even let that thought enter ur mind k?
Cause i wont even think about it de x)
I LOVE YOU!!!
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- OMG *STUNT*, Lao Po...
Hw come u got tat pic of mine? =3=
When did u steal it de luhs?
Hw SWEET of u wor 2 make e pic x)
Ai Shu Ni luhs *Hai Xiu* hahas
LOVE YOU LOADS LOADS
haoHubby

(♥)
- hMmpx. WIFEY arhs, I'll try my best to take off on weekends to ACCOMPANY YOU ONLY de k?

(♥)
- I'm sorry tat tis few weekend kena burn x( i too feel sad bout it...

(♥)
- I LOVE You Too...MUACKS

Lovin You Always
24/7 31/31 365/365
NO MC NO OFF NO PH NO EXCUSES
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- hahas~ Sha Gua ...
I Wont Mind ur attitude de la cox i know smth happened ...

Dun Nid sae sorry , Ai Ni Wor.

Loving You Always
24/7 31/31 365/365
NO MC,NO OFF, NO PH, NO EXCUSES.
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- Wifey arhs~

I Love You Too~
Dun go and care bout hw much i'm spendin k?
AI NI WOR~

MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS
Thks for Stayin by me for so long LOVE YA^^

LOving You Always

24/7 31/31 365/365
No Off No PH No Excuse No Leave No MC
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- hMmpx,Sorry fer causin u the Ucler wor dear...
Wo Yi Huo Hui Xiao Xin Yi Dian de wor =))
*Sayang~

Lovin You Always

24/7,31/31,365/365,
NO PH,NO OFF,NO LEAVE,NO EXCUSE

haoHUBBY

(♥)
- MIA ???
CANNOT ...

(♥)
- Lao Po arhs~
Dun TTM kaes?
I'll b thr for you as and when u nid me ^^

ilubeu~!!!

Loving You ALWAYS
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- I'm REALLY TOUCHED/GAN DONG by wad u said todae,
thks for letting me know that U'll TURN BACK.^^

I'm sry tat i've hurt u e past but i'll try my best to not hurt u anymore, and I WILL LOVE YOU even more x))

LOVING YOU ALWAYS
24/7
31/31
365/365
No OFF, No PH,No Leave
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- i miss you too~
*hugs*

(♥)
- hMmPx tired nehs... gng wake u up later @ 7am kaka~

(♥)
- Sleeply Piiggy ^__^
ILUbeu~

Loving You Always
24/24 31/31 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- HmMpx finally Met up...
But time flies when we're together hor?

(♥)
- I'll Cherish every moments tat we're spendin x)
ILU my Bao Bei baby
Muacks~

Loving you always
24/24 31/31 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- Dont care them le luhs lols~
yea? regreted...

(♥)
- Nvm I Love You hahas~
WHO CARES BOUT OTHER THINGS NOT RELATED TO US Xd RIGHT?

Loving You Always
24/24 31/31 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- Sha Gua, lyk i said le, tis kinda things are trouble.
If can dont go care ma ...
Anyway I just need you by my side and if you got any problems, I'll SLOVE it for you..

I love you my Bao bei Sha Gua x3 ai ni~

Loving You Always
24/24 31/31 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- HAPPY 2ND MONTH MY WIFEY...
ILU DEEP DEEP.
Loving YOU very very deeply and very much.
x)) Thks for everything you gave me.
We've been through alot and we've made it so far ^__^
Let's continue and find OUR FOREVER TOGETHER...

I Love You.

Loving You Always
24/24 31/31 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- Sha Gua Baby, Ai shu ni le *Gan Dong tat you came over xD xD...

(♥)
- hMmpx dun go think so much k ? ILU...

(♥)
- Saying I Love You,
It's nt being said from e Mouth or
typed from e computer,
It come from a Person( which is me) loving you so deeply tat he want you to know his feeling...

It come from his heart to his mind then to e com thn to you.
I LOVE YOU... Ai Ni Ai Dao Lao~

Loving You Always
24/24 31/31 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- Orh... I Misss you three xD

(♥)
- Ai ni ai dao lao~
MUACKS*

Loving You Always
24/24 31/31 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- T_T Just sae sae only marhs =3=
You oso liddat dex))
Dear I'll miss you tis few days de ...
Cant slp wor lols cox thinkin of you .

*MmMmmmmm Muacks
Loving You Always
24/24 31/31 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- ... Tired marhs T_T...
thn you reply so fast hahas =Xx
hMmpx piak ur pipi arhs...

*Mmmmm Muacks
Loving You Always
24/24 31/31 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- !!! * Piak ni de pipi~ xD

wahaha~

(♥)
- Sha Ga Bao bao,
I love yoos~ MUACKS!!!

Loving You Always
24/24 30/30 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY-Bendan Lao Gong

(♥)
- sorry, tat i've broke my lil promises with you ...

Loving You Always
24/24 30/30 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- hMmpx chatted to you till u Oiinks Oiinks agn wor zhu Lao Po...
Sha Gua, is my voice really such a lullaby to eu xD.

(♥)
- Sorry fer e day, I'll try my best to send u my Omelette Tmr xD, Hope i can wake up xD, i'm gonna add some specials in it x))

I Love You (\)(^_^)(/) * Hugsss

Loving You Always
24/24 30/30 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- Sayin anything now may not help but i just want to let you know,

I LOVE YOU ...

Loving You Always
24/24 30/30 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- So Sorry to have let u waited for 3 hours tat dae ... x(

I really didnt mean it i really hope tat day was actually a very happy 1, but in e end it's jus a pleseant 1 for u sorry my dear i've let u down TWICE T_T...

Loving You Always
24/24 30/30 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY

(♥)
- EEE to Felicia, don anyhowsntch my GF hor !!!
u 24/7 nia i already 27/7 liao nehs wahaha^^

(♥)
- Sha Gua Lao Po xD
wahaha, xin fu bahs tat dae ^___^
Let us JYJYJY!!! * MMmmmMMm MUACKS ai ni

Loving You Always
27/24 30/30 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY-Bendan Lao Gong

(♥)
- Sha Gua Lao Po,
we've brave through some storms and twister and we've endure pass it.

xD HAPPY 3RD MONTH !!! xD
(\)(^_^)(/) *HUGSS!!!

Let's continue to find out our Forever TOGETHER hao ma?

Loving You Always
27/24 30/30 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY-Bendan Lao Gong

(♥)
- Sha Gua Lao Po, e other 1 day got 27 hour, 24 is in e day, 3 is in ur dreams lookin after you marhs xD

ilubeu, * MmMmmm MUACKS

Loving You Always
27/24 30/30 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY-Bendan Lao Gong

(♥)
- Sha Gua Lao Po x))
Did you enjoy our 4th month?
Ilubeu *mMmmmm Muacks

Loving You Always
27/24 30/30 365/365
NO OFF, NO MC, NO EXCUSES, NO PH
haoHUBBY-Bendan Lao Gong

(♥)
- Wahaha, Bee Bee...
Here's ur comment LOLS~

buh buh ^_^

ilubeu~

Loving YOU Always
haoHUBBY!!!
27/24,365/365,31/31
NO MC,NO PH, NO OFF...

(♥)
- YawnzZzz... * Piak ur pipi~

(♥)
- ^^ i oso nvr sae u dont mean it...
SHA GUA

(♥)
- Hahas, Sorry to wake u up on e fone jus now =Xx

(♥)
- HAPPY 5th MONTH my Bee Bee!!!
See See, we've made it through another month ^^...
So many more to go ya?
ILUBEU!!!
and i'm not Stupid =3=.

(♥)
- Ai Ni Shi Wo De Zhe Ren , *MUACKS,
Wo Ai Ni!
(\)(^_^)(/)*HUGGIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

(♥)
- Just Dropping by to say,
I LOVE Yoos!!!
xD ^_^ Bee bee few more min to our 5th MONTH le !!!

i'm Glad tat you're still by MY SIDE ^__^* Muacks!!!

(\)(T_T)(/) ilubeu Always ... xP

(♥)
- Sha Gua... Tmr we're meeting x))
wahaha gng swimm swimm, u wont drown tis tym ryte?

(♥)
- Sayang de bee bee, i love yoos...

(♥)
- Sha Gua zhen de dui bu qi wor x((
Hope ya forgive me ...

(♥)
- ??? wei wei still angwee ar?
dun angwee le luhs?

(♥)
- Bee Bee ar...
So sian wor, you ar better don lei huai zhi zi ar...
Sha gua ... imu~

(♥)
- Must piak ur pipi le la -__- lols
jyjyjy @ work k? ilubeu!!!

(♥)
- Don angwee le luhs T_T

(♥)
- Sha Gua

(♥)
- haiyo, flu liao wor u -__-
tc urself more k? i'll go find u later x))

(♥)
- Bee bee ar x))...
xin ku wor @ ur workin place?
Raining now wor, cold de hua must go drink hot drinks ok?
don catch a cold k?

Loving you Always~
haoHUBBY
24/7. 31/31. 365/365.
No Off, No MC, No Ph, No Excuses :))

(♥)
- Bee Bee x)) wahahas, dun sian sian in office luhs ^^
jyjyjy~
i'll call u whn u fang gong~

(♥)
- Sleeply Head, you MUST be in Lala~ Land nw ...
Swt Dreams ya? Tmr i'll try to wakey You up xD.
Rem to Cover ur Blankie!!!
Nytee Lights Out.

(♥)
- Bee Bee :))
Jus drop by to sae ILU ^_^

(♥)
- Brace urself up gal ^^
Think of wad's fer lunch tmr le ma =3= ^^
Luv ya~

(♥)
- Mahjong Mahjong ^^
dunNo later will win ma hahas,
wish u gud luk too may e best one WIN x))
Hubby loves you LOADS !!!!!!!

(♥)
- hMmPX Seems lyk i didnt giib u a Comment fer so Long le wahaha...
@ least i gt write ok nt lyk u Think le thn RUN LOLS~

ilu..."

Its the simpliest thing on earth as stated / as felt above that makes me the happiest girl in the world in the past,
but yet it became the hardest thing to do on earth to make me the happiest girl in the world now, again.

Cherished is all i had to say to everyone,
including myself now. ;)

Signing Off, JolandaLMC.

2009-05-26T21:21:00.003+08:00

guess that i wont be blogging here anymore.
not anymore memories to be added on here at this point of time.
so anything do contact me by msn or facebook.
with my number derhs, just give me a call yahs?
remember, i am just a call away.

BYE ;)

幸福又离我而去了:'(

2009-05-22T23:59:00.002+08:00

Browsing through my Friendster because nothing better to do,
saw all the comments you wrote for me in the past,
so much of happiness in the past, so much of sweetness that I’m really afraid of getting diabetes in future!

But if I could, I would rather let the time stop at that moment.

Do guys know what makes a girl feel bad?
Is that when a girl really thought of crying, feel like crying, she doesn’t have any tears anymore. :’(
Is that when a girl really thought of putting everything in, giving in so much, loving the guy even more, control her bad temper more, shut herself no matter how unhappy she is, give her boy whatever he wanted, sacrifice everything just to see her guy, could make a guy dotes on her more, love her even more, give her more of his attention, make him stay with her, but yet she find that things doesn’t turn out to be what she hoped. :’(
Is that when a girl is really that tired out, that sick, but yet she waited for her guy to call after his work just to chat a lil while, but ended up quarreling, ended up got blame for being quiet. :’(
Is that when everything she did, the 1st thing that came over her is her guy, her guy’s family, but ended up, everything went wrong. :’(
Is that when she realize she have to accept whatever it is happening to her, making her tired, sick, disappointed, because she can’t let go off her guy. :’(
Is that when she knows that 幸福其实根本就不属于她的，she still tries very hard to get her happiness, tries very hard to grab hold of it. But she found out that she couldn’t :’(

Squatting down in the toilet just now, smoking, felt very terrible, but yet no tears are rolling down her cheeks, took a penknife, but din injured myself, hit the wall, but doesn’t feel pain at all.

Thinking back of the 1st time he called me using his buddy’s phone, at that point of time, I’m crying in the toilet, smoking, cutting myself, hitting the wall, he was worried and called me up, consoling me, trying to cheer me up and he even wanted to come down to look for me in the middle of the night. He was concern about me, worried about me, but now everything was changed. When I’m down, he no longer tried to cheer me up, he no longer come down to accompany me, he no longer give me a hug. :’(.

Looking at myself now, crying on my bed, crying in the blanket, without anyone realizing, typing while crying making my keyboard wet. Asking myself. why haven I grown up a lil? Why am I still doing stuffs that I had been doing for past 10yrs? Why am I still so useless when I am in a relationship? Why am I the only one who got blamed whenever things got wrong? Am I really at fault for everything that happened tonight? Why must everything turn out this way? What more should I do to keep my happiness with me?
I don’t know.

Hais, I really don’t know anything anymore.
I’m really very tired. :’(

& I’ve got no idea why I am falling sick so often, maybe due to bad weather? Maybe is too tired emotionally? Maybe is my body telling brain is time to take a break from everything?
I don’t know.

I’m breaking down real soon. :’(
.

幸福到底是什么?
爱情到底是什么？
难道就像他们所说的，我这种人是不可能得到永远的爱情和幸福的? :’(

我不懂 !!

幸福的一天 :D

2009-05-19T11:12:00.013+08:00

Saturdays’

Had ½ day work at office & b came over to fetch me by cabbie due to the HEAVY rain!
& while in the cab to Cine, we zi-lianed. Reached went to buy tickets for “The Ramen Girl” then off to momm momm Pasta Mania~ Overall rated for “The Ramen Girl” : 2.8/5 doesn’t really find it a nice movie, din turn out to be what I thought it was going to be? Bud ah b enjoyed it: D

After watching movie, we trained over to City Hall! & walked all the way to Esplanade! *sorry for spelling error yahs?* & I did many stunts while walking the under path! LOLS!
Bud we still had a great time doing stupid things like this, bud sad to say~ we never take any pictures! Then sat down, chatted a lot & saw one Indian women & her Man, Man = Photographer, Woman = Model, posting here & there! Then I ask b, “Are they really model or something? “ & b replied “WAH! Like that their company very budget!” ROFL! So lame lurhs~ then before leaving saw 2 couples French-kissing behind the bush? =.=” as if they are competing “WHO CAN FRENCH KISS LONGER!” LMAO!

Then trained over to Bugis again! & I bought my new make up remover & Maybeline creamy gel eyeliner! & ah b sponsor 10 bucks for it :D after that went SheeSha! Bud din managed to find the SheeSha shop that ah b wanted to go & I brought b to a wrong road, ended losing our way in, so ended up cab over to Haji lane! LOLS! Wasted 10 bucks :’(
Then b brought me walked one big round so ended up settled down in one SheeSha shop nearby.

& for the whole day,B & I kept on eating potato wedges! Whether is watching movie or SheeSha-ing! Loved it so much ^^ & while SheeSha-ing, there is like a group of Indians people again! SUPER NOISY! Bud can see they enjoyed the gathering very much! Thinking back, it had been a while ever since I had such a gathering! Ahhh! Miss the past so much! So much!

Then after SheeSha-ing, we cab back to my house, changed & went down to slack again!
Chatted again, sung again! Then went over to the 7/11 to buy drinks & settled down at a nearby void deck again! Been playing, laughing, suan-ing & learning new games! HAHA!
Really had a good time, TILL! *PONG* we looked over where the sound came from, & saw a man lying on the middle of the road! LIKE OMFG! We faster take our belongings & chiong-ed over! Called the ambulance & bought some water for the Malay old man!
And before the ambulance came, the old man walked again! & finally the ambulance is here; b brought them to the old man & did some checking on him & went off. & after a big shocked, b & me continued the games & laughter. * Luckily, no-one called the police, HAHA!*

Then ah b, send me home around 1-3-am? & I went over to B’s place the 1st thing in the morning.

Okays,
So let me end this post with our 恩爱 picture :D

我自己的幸福，我要自己争取。

2009-05-13T11:25:00.012+08:00

back posting!
budd doesnt know what to start of with..
so many stuffs running in my mind~
wana scream on top of my voice!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~
budd doesnt haf th chance to.. ;(

on sunday~
[BROKE & PATCHED]
suppose to be a Happy Mummy Day Celebration..
budd i ruined it..
i know imm very bad to choose th day to say this kind of stuff with him..
tried to control..budd i lost it..
couldnt control..
anyway..
these few days, many ppl scold me..blame me for hurting him again..asking me y i like tat..?
budd i really din mean it too..
who knows what imm gg through also? who knows what imm thinking?No one what.?
i know he treats me very well & i know what causes us to be like that
imm at fault too.i admit, imm a coward whenever there is a problem, i will
try to avoid~avoid~avoid~ budd yet i regreted in th end & tried to save back.
thats me. isn't it? at least imm trying to save back isn't it? lols..
budd of cosh i know, its too late.. .. .. ..

Had a chat with him on sunday,

he say " 你不觉得now 的我，当你说break，我就说ok ，break lorh break lorh."
my thoughts : when i heard this, my heart broked x/3.turn dumb..cant think of anything to say anymore..
cosh i know, i got no right to.. we total, broke 3 times.. n imm th 1 who say 2 times out of 3.. :'(

he say " imm trying very hard to be a good brother, good son & a good boyf."
my thoughts : i know yoo are trying very hard to be a good bro,good son & good bf..budd i oso
know yoo tried harder to be a good bro & good son.isn't it?

he say " becox of our r/s, i neglected my family, my sibilings. & now imm trying hard to improve to be a better bro & son, am i wrong?"
my thoughts : no.. yoo are not wrong.. imm wrong for keeping my boyf to myself in th past budd nvr let
yoo to accompany with yor family more..imm wrong to be selfish & jealous over your family...

he say "becox of our breakups, i understand that, gf will leave one day budd family doesn't"
my thoughs : true barhs. your family have always been there for yoo, imm always the one saying
wanting to leave yoo budd again n again i cant leave yoo.. haiish.. sorry :'(

he say " 2 more big blow, i will let the monster in me out, once its out, i will hack care alot of stuffs."
my thoughts : it will be my fault if th monster of yoo come out.. isn't it? *blaming myself*

he say " actually there should be 3 more big blow, budd cosh of watever happen just now, it become
2 & it will not increase back anymore."
my thoughts : really felt very sad to hear this.. budd since it cant increase back anymore.. i can only help to
maintain it?..using my best...

yup, this is what happen on sunday..
& from there i tink i learn & understand alot of stuff.
mayb i have grow up? mayb imm acting to be a grown up?
mayb cosh i think too much, i finally get to know what i actually wanted in
the end from this r/s..from him..
i have decided to put in everything, whether i can do it or can't, whether i
like whatever imm dg or i hate whatever imm dg..i will still try my best to
give him whatever he wants from me.. eventhough i know the more i give,
he will ask for even more.. humans, not only him..including me is the same..
bud now, i won't ask him for any 100% anymore.. not 100% of time, not 100% of love, not 100% of care, not 100% of concern, not 100% of understanding, not 100% of dotes, not
100% of loyalty.. everything that he gave me doesn't nid to be 100% anymore.. cosh i know.. as long as i wan this r/s to last.. as long as i wan this r/s to be a happy one.. i can't. budd
whatever it is, i will try my best to be more understanding towards him.. & be there for him whenever he needs me..

eventhough this r/s might not turn out to be what i hoped for..
might get hurt again & i can't stand up anymore..
might get betrayed.. so on n so for..
budd i know at least i wont regret, at least i know that imm always giving him my best to be a good girlfriend of his.

so peeps!
wish me best of luck yahs?
:DD

刘美珍，你一定要让他幸福哦 ! ^.^

& imm so excited about Saturday!

gonna cycle? gonna sing k? gonna lie on th floor looking at the shining stars?

& just most importantly,

its just,

HIM & ME.

Fell Sick Again...

2009-05-07T10:16:00.003+08:00

Locked Post.

:'(

won't be posting anymore for time being.
BYE.

. . .

2009-05-06T16:08:00.003+08:00

我们在一起的一年一个月零八天.

Locked Post.

:'(
falling into pieces..i know i will one day......

Day Out~

2009-05-05T11:28:00.003+08:00

back blogging after 5 days!
been playing facebook, th game: Who Has The Biggest Brain!
& shytt!! ahbee is clever than me! LOLS!
dhen been pei-ing ahbee , ahjie & ahgao!
that stupid LAOCHUNAN *refering to ahgao*!! LOLS!
k lurhs. tats all lerhs! :DD

Locked Post.

2009-04-30T13:19:00.003+08:00

我后悔了。

Secret.

anyway,
i got no idea hw th fuck i injuried my leg =.="
the pain is killing me!!! FUCKKKKKKKKK!!!
& now i have difficulty walking!!
SO FUCKING PAIN.
pain till my tears rolling down my cheeks. lols.
siann..thinking whether i should cab home today after work a not.
cosh i still have to bring my lappy back!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! FUCK IT!

budd heng!
tomlo holiday~~~
HOHOHOHO :DD
gonna stay at home th whole day & rest my leg :DD
hopefully saturday can recover !!
if nt i dnt oe hw to come back to work =.="

k lurhs tats all?
bye people.

2009-04-27T21:50:00.002+08:00

13MONTH~

hahas, today didnt go to work, kinda aching all over,

so slp till 11+ gng 12 O.o

thn called dear cause she lunch tym soon le ma hahas.

chatted and she said: Ah D, i got something for you.

O.o so making some weird guesses but all wrong which she said LOLS~.

So after work,she cabbed over and i'm lyk guessing e gift from her

and she said dont open ar only till i leave thn can open

so i said OK^^

went to mommom and bring my Dog for a walk ...

open e gift whn she left.

OMG~ hahas.LOVE IT MAN!!!

ty Deedee Happy 13 Month !!!

ilu

Soon Its Going To Be Our 1st yr & 1stmonth ^^

2009-04-25T00:54:00.003+08:00

24/4/09

Maybe dear didnt notice cause so much happen tis week,

but it gng b our First Year First Month soon le wahaha.

2dae so bored @ home thn e stupid aloy ar sae meet till his pi gu thr,

-__- so post-pone to sunday.

Bring ah jie down walk walk thn who knows saw Mr 'Tong Ji Fan'-aka ah rui.

talk a lil with him thn go Pasir Ris fetch my dearest.

So we went over to White Sand Mall,

ate @ e food court and decided to go to Pasir Ris Park.

Sat down on some rocks thr and chatted and chatted.

Sometym somethings must b said so each other know wad you're doing.

Had a nice chat didnt we x)).

Thn something happen....*Secret between Dear and Me*

So after tat was drench with sweat...

too long nvr run le bahs so tired but still ok la.

20min To&Fro from e park to Ehub thn bak to e Park lols.

cabbed her home and sat and watch tv with her thn go off.

Told her bedtym story of " The Three Little Pig"

lols so cute ~ thn she really oiinks oiinks.

gng down smoke jiu crash le nytee guys~

Gud Nytee Dearest Gal *slp tight yeah?

dont kick ur blanky away agn 2nytee (\)(~.~)(/) Hugs*

Puting Down Everything.

2009-04-24T16:54:00.004+08:00

making a quick post juz b4 gg off from work (:
met up with mei ytd~chatted alot alot alot alot!
& i guess, she is th one who really could uds me barhs.
which make me feel, HAPPY!:D

i mean at least someone uds me, can feel hw i feel.
& good thing by telling her is, she nvr judge.

BUT, to prevent friction & my r/s with boyf will be smoother oso.
& we wnt tok anything regarding some ppl & his family.
simple, as both me n boyf dnt wana let anything or anyone to affect our r/s again.

budd somethings are for sure~
i wn't let anyone make used of me anymore.
&& i will only take it as,
你们这些“朋友“我白交了，也白帮了。

so from now,
everything will be th same as in th past,
i don't know yoo guys & yoo guys dnt oe me. :D

tats all

IMISSMYBOYFRIEND!

Living In The Past.

2009-04-23T14:58:00.003+08:00

Th pain & dissapointment is still there *pointing to ("v")*

had a very long chat with dear again ytd at th playground!
very long nvr go there with dear alrdy,
we chatted alot of th past , had fun & dear was shocked that i rmbed almost everything that was happening to us.

such as,

wad we wear at our 1st meeting, did he bing any bag, the content of our conversation in th past, my 1st cry infront of him, the song that was playing in th background while imm crying, the promises he make to me, the 1st ciggy he bought for me, the 1st meal we had tgt, th things his family & his frens hurt me, th things my family & frens hurt him, etc & etc.

so much of memories between us.
think back about wad we did in th past,
was very funny & silly! HAHA.
budd still i missed those dayss of our past...

;'(

We fight & we broke up , We kissed & we made up!

2009-04-22T11:02:00.016+08:00

We fight & we broke up.
had a super terrible day on monday.
everyone says is my fault thats y bee ended our r/s.
giving negative comments to bee.

ask him to give up on me.
ask him to ignore me.
ask him nt to sms me.
ask him to nt care abt me anymore.
ask him to forget abt me.
ask him isit cosh he treat me too good tat i climb on top of him & shyt.

told him hw bad imm as his girlf.
told him hw much i dnt appreciate him.
told him tat there is no point holding on to this r/s, cosh imm not worth.

& etc..

TRUE.
yoo guys are trying to make him feel btr~
yoo guys wana let him oe yoo guys are there for him~
yoo guys wana cheer him up~

wad yoo all did was wad a fren should be doing.

budd since i ever heard yoo guys saying that yoo guys dont like to be judge by ppl,
then i ask yoo back,
WHO THE FUCK YOO TINK YOO ARE TO JUDGE ME OR OUR R/S ?!
HOW MUCH DO YOO KNOW ABOUT ME?!
HOW MUCH DO YOO UDS ME?!
HOW LONG DO YOO KNOW ME?!
HOW THE FUCK YOO UDS WAD IMM GOING THROUGH?!

nothing?. limited understanding?

like wad bee told me,
treat other ppl like how i wan them to treat me.
budd afterall, i dont tink things really work out that way isn't it?

I Love My Boyfriend deep inside me.
budd imm not like yoo guys including my own bf,
i dnt oe hw to show. i dnt oe hw to express.
BUDD.
I DNT SHOW DOESNT MEAN I DNT LOVE!DOESNT MEAN I DNT CARE!

i admit.
i hurt bee alot & many times i kept quiet..
budd who the fuck oe everytime i hurt him i hurt myself too?!
i know yoo all muz be tinking i 自作自受,
budd do yoo tink when one ppl is angry, letting all emotions taking over,she still can control wad is comming out of my fucking mouth?!
if yoo can, good for yoo. budd i fucking hell CANT!
who uds? who uds the pain, the stress, the pressure imm having?

& dont ever compare me with any of yor exs,
cosh i din 'zhao sai' my boyf. imm tiong xim & i can swear.
juz that th way i express is different.
& which imm trying very hard to change, trying very hard not to hurt my boyf.

anyway, i tried my best in this r/s.
juz that i dnt show, doesn't mean i dnt love him, doesnt mean i dnt protect him, doesnt mean i wana hurt him, doesnt mean i dnt care, doesnt mean i dnt mind abt his feelings.

budd of cosh, i know i cant let my past be a burden to our r/s anymore.
budd who can teach me hw to walk out of my door.
i wanted to. i tried my best to. budd i juz cant.

had a heart to heart tok with me ytd for 3-4 hrs.
i told him many of my secrets. many of my thinkings, & y did i do things in certain way that will hurt him when i dnt mean to.
& listen to what he said, i've gt no choice to admit, we have many things to worked on & immm veryveryvery sorry, cosh of my ego which i cant put down, cosh i dnt wan yoo to tink tat imm very weak, cosh of my character, cosh of my bad habit, i hurt yoo & myself.

budd i really really happy that, in the end of our chat, eventhough i kip hiding from his 眼神, he forced me to look into his eyes & tell me he believe me.

He believed that one day i would changed.
He believed that one day i would open my door & walk out to accept him.
He believed in ME.
& i tink thats enough for me.

budd oso from the chat, i really really got very dissapointed in some ppl.
cosh i always thought they will uds.
budd turn out to be no, they dont uds at all.
& they are someone who i dotes on, care for, concern for,love for.
budd i tink everything wnt be th same anymore , & i tink same things apply to them too.

ok lerhs..
thats all, hopefully things will get btr for us..
& i will try my best to control & change for btr..
& will try very hard to forget everything that happen on monday!

imm bleeding 100x more than yoo..

2009-04-20T16:39:00.005+08:00

没有人会知道我的心有多痛。
没有人知道我留了多少眼泪。
没有人知道我真的崩溃了。

MY HEART REALLY HURTS THAT MUCH THAT MUCH.

-Jolanda.

2009-04-17T20:26:00.002+08:00

Day 386,

9264 hours since we had been tgt,
I felt so bad for hurting you tym and again,

guess tat u've had enough of me and don wanna see me anymore,

The world suddenly seems crushing down onto me fallin in

as i'm sitting @ home thinkin of our past,

those happy moments we had before ,

from hw we started happily, quarrels, cold wars, swt moments,

went to see each other parents and our holiday.

I felt so bad thinkin bout it,

seems lyk a knife stabbing me everytym i think bout you,

not because of you but because of me- treating you so badly.

Whn you sms me to look for a btr GF,the clock seems to stop,

everything slowed down,weird thoughts started poping out,

emotions starting to arouse and heart seems to stop beating.

Because of my words, I've hurt you again, such a failure i am huh?

Back thn I Promise you tat i will nt let you cry,will not hurt you,

looks lyk i didnt kept those promises hard enough.

trying my best is nt good enough cause

i still did hurt u with those hurtful words just now.
I hope tat we'll still stay on tgt and find out hw long our TOGETHER is...

But seems lyk we can only find tat out If you forgive me.

Bee(Lau Mei Chen), i know i've been stupid and truly hope tat you'll

Forgive ME.

Let tmr be a day of Joy for e both of us, we've been through so much.

I Hope our TOGETHER doesn't End here on

Day 386,Hour 9264,Min 556020,Sec 33361200.

Like wad i said, Hubby loves you always.

24/7,31/31,27/24,

No MC,No Ph,No AL.

Just For you.

Rainbow found.. (:

2009-03-23T09:32:00.002+08:00

backies!
ytd was a bad day! budd turn out to be good. (:
had a very long sms chat with B last night after he left my house,
told him th reason why imm lyk that for these few months,
& he accepted. :DD
so hopefully, after the chat we could be btr yas? :D

& nxt is! im so excited for th genting trip! :DD
cant wait for sunday to come!
hopefully everything goes well when we are in genting yahs? :DD
many shoppings to be done! & games to be played!

& lastly!
MY STOMACH IS STILL CRAMPING! T_T
hate dayima to th core! T_T

Another Rain..

2009-03-21T09:11:00.004+08:00

had cold war with bee for 20+hours?
cosh he really made me fuck up!
& at that point of time i really regreted to be with him barhs,
& mayb if we stay as frens in the begining will be btr? i dont know...
anyway, he says he regreted for things to turn out this way,
so we are okay alrdy.
went to exercise at th nearby neighbourhood, reach home ard 10pm!
(i know its early :D)
& my MY DA YI MA came to visit me! =.="
STOMACH CRAMPING LYK HELL!!! T_T

8 more days before i leave for genting,
need to grab a few stuffs n of cosh some 'snoppy' before i go!
&& time really flys! so fast it will be our 1st year anniversary.
budd i gonna make a decision by tat day to myself.
cosh to be honest i dnt have any confidence in this r/s.
& everyone was lyk saying,
as long as he dnt 'hong' outside & i love him, we should be continuing our path.
budd to me, too many things are stopping me to continue?
one of it is cosh, th him is no longer there.
yahs, budd so wad if he is tiong xim to me? budd he is no longer th one i know & im no longer th one he knows.

budd if clock were to turn back to th past,
i will cherish him even more..

GIVE ME THE HIM BACK!

th him who dotes on me, th him who cares for me, th him who is always there for me, th him who is always concern abt me, th him who will give in to me, th him who will sayang me, th him who understand me, th him who LOVE me.

Its Just Another Joke!

2009-03-18T11:32:00.004+08:00

EVERYTHING IS A JOKEURNEY OF LIFE!!

yoo dont know wad i wanted.
yoo dont know how i feel.
yoo dont know wad type of person imm.
yoo dont know wad imm thinking.
so much of dont, yet nth has been done.

all yoo know wad to say is.
" your wall is very high, budd i will try my best to climb over to yoo."

budd yoo are th one making my walls going higher?
& how the fuck can someone who is building th wall higher to climb over?
i dont know..

i admit, i dont oe hw to appreciate yor love in the past.
true. as tats the point whereby i really feel yoo love me, bud yet imm not prepared to yoo wad yoo wanted..
budd now. when imm slightly prepared,i tried to give yoo wadever yoo want with my limit.
however yoo made me shut myself up.

making me no longer affected.
making me no longer dependent on yoo.
making me no longer have any topic to chat with yoo.
making me no longer wana tok to yoo.
making me no longer wana listen to your everything.

budd yet after all i still cant say i dont love yoo.
cosh when having the tots of leaving yoo, my heart really hurts.
at th same time, imm tired to continue..
seriously, i dont know wad to do..

everyone is saying, including me.
"everyday is a brand new start for cpls."
say is easier than done.
cosh i cant face th same problem as a new challenge for us everyday.

anyway,
i enjoyed th phone-talk 2 days ago.
seems we have went back to 11months ago?
:DD

~THE END~

2months to lose weight! :D

2009-03-10T14:04:00.003+08:00

yoshie everyone!
blogging in office while waiting for "Ghost Mother" to load.
read th summary & find it okayy since its thai horror! :D

anyway~
guess i really nid to cut down on my weight alrdy! ;(
gonna stop all tibits, supper, fried food, soft drinks, bubble tea, fast food, buffet, etc!
(which is all my favourties!)!
& gonna start on my broccoli diet arldy! starting from tomlo? hahas.
maybb additional of sweet corn? :D
wish me luck yah?!

kayys, tats all lerhs!
back to my HORRORR!

byeee:DD

2009-03-09T23:06:00.005+08:00

Recently the time pass so fast tat i didnt realise hahas,

we went to e zoo,Pasir ris park, caught couple of movies out and some using laptop O.o

Working is very tiring,maybe tat's wad life is about,

being born to exprience e pain,happiness,sorrow,joy,fear... etc.

But no matter wad happen to each and every of us,

we still need to walk finish tis path called
'LIFE'.

So Peeps out thr, start to treasure every min and sec of ur life,

those without a dream or an aim,

No worries ^^ take a tym and think of it

Be who u wanna be and strive for wad you always wanted.

But dont do bad or illegal things la -___-.

Anyway, if u fail, don be sad bout it just take it as an exprience and try again,

Failure is the KEY to Success x)).

Zoo trip was tiring and fun, but was headach for me T_T

cause my lil bro quarrel wib Beebee ...

turn out nt as i planned but i'll bring my Bee bee go agn,

nxt tym w/o my lil bro LOLS.

Recently oso met quite a few goners @ tampines ,

while i was walking back Bee, went to 7-11 to see if they still gt

the Hello Kitty anot, wanted to change for her,

so i went in a took a peep,

a 40+yrs old indian man was lyk saying

Cazy Indian Man: eh boy Q up la i v hungry

Me: Erm i'm jus looking to see if there's e figurines to change .

Crazy Indian Man: i v hungry la u Q up la, if nt later we quarrel fight not good,

Police come v troublesome.

Me: Are you crazy? you're holding a Bunny Pen for payment n u tell me u're hungry?

So i scolded him crazy and walk out of tat 7-11 cursing him ...

-__- he eats bunny pen?

My precious Gal has been down with sickness,

recover and down, and recover...

The weather nt too good i guess, so

Bee ar, must take care of urself more ok? ^^

'Look my Bee bee loves kangaroo too =))"

'No Tiger can stop me !

Scarecrow? i'm definetly scared.

"Alien INVASION~~~

Farmer Boy

Sunshine after the rain !

2009-03-09T12:19:00.006+08:00

OPPS!
sorry for being mia for 1month+ !
imm really really really ~~lazy~~ bz!
been chionging movies! :D
anyway! cant really rembered wad i did for this 1 month =.="
BUDD! i rembered imm always sick =.="
so i've been eating stupid & bitter medicines!

ohh yaa~ i might be gg back to my studies soon!
depends barhs :D
gg MDIS for Diploma in Pyschology / Professional Certificate in Pyschology! not sure if im up to it!budd i will try my best to get my cert! :D

ohh ya~
lets tok abt my recent?
sat, sick AGAIN!

budd still went down dhoby to fetch b

& went back to his place,

waited for him to bathe,

& cabbed to bro's place with sis & majong-ed!

tat day reallly sueyy! l

ost $30 bucks in th end! budd its fine with me,

cosh wasn't feeling well =.=" , vomited twice! =.="

dhen sun~watched He's not that into you ytd ,

with bodohsis,kor & wendy at tampines mall!

n had my 3rd piercing! not tat pain after all =.="

guess gonna get my left ear full of piercing! =x

as for past few weeks~
i have watched " Marley & me " , " Kungfu Chef " with b.
& been watching horror movies at home n b's place online.
& had our 11th monthsary!

& soon will be our 1st year anniversary!
looking towards it eh!
& as for our 1st year anniversary celebration,

we will be gg for our "honeymoon" at genting!

budd will be after th actual day! :D

k lurhs!
tats all for my update!
sorry peepos for th delay yahs?! :D

Things Will Not Be The Same Anymore!

2009-02-12T12:07:00.003+08:00

afternoon everyone!
had a bad dream ytd.budd kinda of stupid lurhs!
nearly got killed in th dream, budd my neighbour's screams woke me up =.="

anyway! imm really getting fk up over this job!
n i really meant by fk up lurhs! PUACHEEBYEE!
haiish, hopefully i could get another job soon? T_T

& valentimes day is coming,yet i haven thought of wad to buy for him =.=!
&&&&& it was th 1st time imm spending my Vday with the status being attached!
shocked barhs? having so many bf in th past yet nvr had a Vday celebration with any of my boyf. =.="

& soon it will be MrLau's bday!
at th same time is tat bastard bday oso!
budd is oso a day tat i wnt ever 4gt! lols!
afterall, i know this yr of tat day, WILL NOT BE THE SAME!!
cosh i will be at home celebrating Mr.Lau's bday! :DD

ok lurhs, thats all for now? :D
bye peeps! :D

2009-02-12T00:22:00.003+08:00

hMmpx recently been through loads of ups n downs,

@ both work and relationship,

but no matter wad mistakes i've made it cannot be erase/undo anymore.

Now the only solution is for me to prefect everything and undersand abit more

no matter wad things other ppl said around me i'll just filter and absorb in e good and

throw out all e nonsense.

Now @ least things sems better through more communicating thn e past few days

and i'm glad =))

No matter wad happens i'm still giving in my very 100%.

your V Day challenge is really quite headach,

with a budget of 19.90 tat u set, u wanna a romantic day..

hMmpx i gt an idea but dunno if it works out?

Hope it does ^^

It's a secret, jus lyk ur v day present ^__^

Just w8 n see bahs bee!!!

Hubby loves u!~

Not Now...

2009-02-07T12:20:00.004+08:00

i hasn't been controlling myself.
don even feel lyk giving in anymore.
(budd maybb to yoo, i have nvr ever give in b4.)
as th time goes by, both of us changed.
lyk wad yoo sayy to me in th past,
my walls are high & its getting higher as th days goes by.
i gt no idea wads wrong with me too.
everytime i juz wan to have a nice date with him,
we will always ended up quareling?
& both of us will act as nth had happened?
i mean i dnt lyk tat way, i felt bad...
mayb we should talk out?
budd to be honest, i dnt have th mood to..i dnt feel lyk too.. haiish.
many times i really feel lyk giving up.
imm juz tired.....
of cosh, i cant blame him only for wad happen between us.
to me now, he is lyk a young chap? & imm lyk a so-called matured woman?
i no longer think lyk hw i thought about things in th past.
we seems to be facing a very big communication error?
so B, don ask me lyk wad yoo did on thursday.
cosh i dnt oe how to tell yoo. i dnt oe wad to tok to yoo.
maybb i have shut myself up alrdy? sry..

i know he have been keeping stuffs in himself.
budd me too. i gt no1 to fall back on, not even to my closest person.
i dnt have th feelings lyk i had in th past, whereby i could tell myself tat i could depend on this man, yes i can. budd now, i would ask myself.
is this man really someone dependable?
its different.

budd of cosh. i do love him tats y i have been hanging on.
i guess he is th same too.
cosh even if i cant feel him anymore,
th ppl ard us have been telling me "yoo meant alot to him" , "he really loves yoo alot" , "maybb if yoo all really ended, he might jump down a building leh!" .
& at th end i agree with them too. LMAO!

budd currently,
even after i posted this entry, i dnt wana tok about it yet.
maybb one day. budd seriously not now.
cosh isn't th time yet. ;(

BUSY BUSY BUSY GIRL!

2009-02-03T09:39:00.008+08:00

HOHOHOHO!
my blog seems to be so dead lurhs!
anyway disowned one daddie. xP
soooo imm so left with one COWPAPA! :DD
th best daddy i ever had? ^^
gonna meet up with him soon lurhs!
anyway~ found a website for editing of pictures!
& HAHA! imm being naughty about it! HEHES!

okayys! back to topic!
have been meeting up with bee,sis & bro!
slack,crapp & majong-ed!
so i haf been been hanging ard sk guaaa~
&&&!
i have watched

Wedding Game, 大喜事 @ TM。
went with lyk group of 12? =.=" maciam go pia zui lyk tat zZz..
was funnyyyy & touching in some of th parts. (too lazy to elaborate!)
so i gave it 4✰/5✰

another show is,

All Well's Ends Well, 家有喜事 @ PS。
went to watched with bee.
anyway, this show was'nt up to my expectations.
not funny enough, not touching enuff.
was kinda boring? =.="
budd overall still alright. (:
so i gave it 3✰/5✰

THEN ONE BAD THING IS!!!!
i still got many movies tat i wanted to watched! ;(

Love Matters, 幸福万岁。

Hotels For Dogs.

Confessions of a Shopaholic.

He's Just Not That Into You.

Marley & Me

So, who wana treat me to a movie? :DD

okays lurhs!

tats all!

:DD

Losing Someone Is My Greatest Fear!

2009-01-21T12:02:00.004+08:00

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING SOOON!
& imm still so not done with my shopping =.="
guessed i have to settle down with my old clothings, i guess? :D

okayys~went blog hopping in a blog!
saw a chinese entry that was th same as my previous entry.
kindaaa fcuk up? budd 4gt it =.="
some ppl juz don have originality!
i guessed i juz have to accept it? (:

okayys~ anyway!
went blog hopping again! & saw this!
try it if yoo guys wants! ^^
as for me i find it super TRUE!!!

hahas.kayys,tats all for now!
byebye ^^

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Looked down on
Death
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I will be Okay !! (i hope..)

2009-01-14T09:41:00.002+08:00

trying very hard to be strong again (:
really trying very hard. hehes.
& i guessed imm now?
at least infront of everyone! ^^

din cried tat much alrdy,
budd eye still a lil swollen eh! T_T
&& 1 secret is~
i haven cry till shuang! still quite nan guo barhs ;(
so i guessed if i cry again will be more jialad barhs! (:

anyway!
bee, xiehxieh ni~
i can feel that yoo are showering me with extra love, care, dotes these few days!
& from yor stupid schedule yoo tried to make time for me by buying lunch for me during my lunch time! & yoo have to come all over from sengkang to eunos juz for me!
honestly, i felt bad. coshh of wad happen recently, yoo lyk din get enough rest...
budd cosh of yoo, i stood up again! :D

我爱你..

2009-01-12T02:38:00.002+08:00

hMmpx...

2dae, bee bee came over to find me early in e morning...

thn we went to mommom @ Compass Point Yoshinoya.

headed over to popular and she brought a book.

After tat went to take train, and she started tearing...

Telling me why,

*Heart Shattered* tried to cheer her up yet it failed time and agn,

Felt tat i'm suddenly so USELESS,

cant even bring a SIMPLE SMILE to her face,

cant even be there for her when she needed me the most.

Why did things turn out tis way?

Why did God let my Precious SUFFER so much?

Cant everyone just leave her alone for a moment?

Must YOU GUYS make her have a BREAKDOWN b4 u guys stop?

Why?

It was damm heart breaking to say Good Bye to you @ City Hall 2dae bee,

My whole heart dropped out whn i saw u cry and i cant do a thing as i'm startin work soon.

WHY???

God, Tell me WHy if u're there?

Reached Hotel, no mood to work,kept thinking bout my Precious Gal.

Everyone around askin me "Hey dude. you Alright?"

Ignored every1...

Texted Bee and called her, No reply...

When everything seems to crash down, she replied me telling me tat she's @ Tampines.

Felt so relieved, Thn started texting her making sure she's alright.

She replied: U dnt nid dan xin wo la.u go wrk bahs jy.

* tears in my eye*I'm thinking, Hw to not worry bout you Sha Gua?

Telling me you're alright whn u cried in e train?

Babe,Sometimes i really admire u fer being so strong,

But whn tis kinda things happen and u told me to nt worry bout u?

Hw can i ? it may b possible if i'm Heartless but i'm definetly not.

*Bak to work* went fer a quick lunch,

*worried sick*called her,called... and call.

Finally she answer, she told me tat she was in e toilet and @ home reading a story book...*RELIEVED*.

Glad tat she's finally willing to let me into her dark world ,

yet sad as there's nth i can do.

All i can do is sae babe, cheer up k?

Felt lyk a LOSER,Worst of Worst kinda Loser...

Why cant i do anything from tis kinda harms to her?

Feels lyk seeing her Stabbed while i'm tied up right in front of her.

*Work* chionging my mis en place, while thinkin of Bee,

Everyone Fking me saying: Eh? why today so slow? Faster can bo?

IGNORED them, Chef Melvin came over to help me,

askin me if i'm Alright and Stuff...

i said yeap, no problem...

He Smiled and went off.

So many thoughts and feeling bottling up inside me and it finally exploded!!!?

When Cook 3 Ivan came over n started talking lyk an arrogant Fcuk to me,

I SHouted bak @ him : MIND UR OWN FCUKING BUSINESS,

NOT HAPPY WANT TALK OUTSIDE OR WADEVER FK I'M ON,

DUN GIB ME UR FK FACE AND WADSOEVER FKING PATTERN LYK A FKING GANGSTER.

He Shut Up and went off.

Nobody @ Ala Carte Made a noise over tis incident...

Rushing,rushing rushin, Hoping tat i can faster finish all these stuff and call babe,

Chef Ricky ask Cook2 Steven to whipp up dinenr for both of us.

No Mood to eat.

After chionging everything.

FINISH!!! xD So happy as i can finally call Bee~

Thn she answered sounding very slpy and told me she's asleep.

x) Babe, Hope tat u'll have the SWEETEST DREAM today .

LOVE YOU LOADS.

Sorry fer not being able to be there for you babe T_T

PS: Bee,I'll save every single cents,hoping tat One Day,

I Could get u outta there and live a life of our own,

I had enough of seeing u suffer and even if it means work till i drop,

I will,Just Because U're Precious to me...

I LOVE YOU BEE,

Hope tat tomorrow will be e end of these sufferings and start of all e joyfulness x)

Bring Me Away...

2009-01-11T19:46:00.004+08:00

been a very much crybaby this few days.
ever thought i have no tears anymore, budd have been crying & crying!
& th worst thing is, i dnt care where imm. i still cried.

mayb i too long nvr cry le barhs.
so once i start i cant stop.. HAHA!!
in train with bee, i cried.
in toilet , i cried.

b4 slping i cried.

smoking time, i cried.

b4 i eat, i cried.
dhen bee say, my eyes have been swollen lyk fcuk! LMAO!
felt tat imm a shyt! sometimes i dnt even oe wad imm crying about!
which is th worst thing. HAHAHA!

i made everyone smile..
budd i made myself cried lyk nobody bz!
OF COSH!
th 1 tat made me cried isnt bee.
i oso dnt oe wad made me kip crying! LAMESHYT!
maybb imm juz too tired.
maybb i juz nid a break from everything.

& sorry bee, i made yoo nearly cried too.
i dnt lyk th me this few days.
seems to be so fragile...so fragile...

为什么我会那么脆弱？
为什么我的人生就这么悲惨？
我该这么做才能逃离这里？
为什么我所做的一切努力，都不能结束我的痛苦？
我好痛苦..真的好痛苦...

... ... ...

Hell Yes! imm crying again.. ;(

2009-01-10T23:27:00.004+08:00

back blogging!
juz had a bad "talk" with MR LAU, who is my dad?
yesh, is a question mark.!

after everything i had from yoo & the lau family.
how i wished imm not part of this lau family!
how i wished i gort nth to do with yoo guys!
how i wished i din oe yoo guys!
sometimes i really hope yoo are dead!
yahs. i know im evil to say this. BUDD YESHH!!!
i hope yoo are dead! LMAO!!
& to be honest this is not th 1st time ever i had this tinking!!

yahs yoo dnt care whether imm happy or not!
budd same to yoo, i don care yoo are happy a not.
imm still gg find a part time job!
i rather work till die! tired till die!
i will still WORK ANOTHER PART TIME JOB!!
i will still continue my job hunting!!
& for yor info, even if i have ang bao from my company,
i wnt even tell yoo lurhs!
standard every month $200 means $200! no more no less!
& ohh yaaa!!! dont say i only gib yoo $200 okay? cosh everytime in th month yoo will ask another $100 from me! or when yoo all gt no money to buy ingredients! yoo all take it from me too!

so wad is th difference between me n yor son?
& dnt say i spend alot, is yoo dnt even oe wad imm spending on!
budd anyway i spend my own money, not urs!
n plz dnt expect me to gib yoo $300 per month cosh i dnt earn 1.5k permonth lyk yor son did!
yesh! yor son deduct 300 for his cpf, LYK HELLO! yoo mean i din gt deducted for it?
& his take home pay is still higher than me by $200 can?! so wad is th difference?!
after deducting his cpf, his $300 for this lau family, he still have a hundred more to spend compared to me okay?!
yesh! yor son gt th hp bills he nid to pay, SO DO I!!I PAID MYSELF OKAY?!
yesh! yor son gt buy insurance! budd is lyk HELLO! is yoooo made him to buy?
& ohh ya! i did buy my own insurance too! is juz tat yoo guys dont oe!!LMAO!
yesh! yor son paid & get the stuff for his computer himself, SO DO I!
when my laptop is down, did yoo even bothered?! NOOO! yoo din!
IS I BUY EVERYTHING MYSELF TO REVIVE MY LAPTOP!!
& wad more i still have to pay $100 to the stupid cpf board money! & can i ask yoo, DID YOR SON NID TO PAY HIS ITE EDUCATION FEE TO YOR CPF?! HE DONT OKAY?!
yesh! this laptop is yoo buy gib me 1, BUDD SO WAD? yoo mean yoo never ever bought a computer for yor son? IS LYK HELLO!!! b4 he go rebuild th whole computer, b4 everything, is yoo paid for the computer okay?! & we still nid to snatch to use to computer OKAY?!
yesh! yor son nid to pay his internet bills himself! LYK HELLO!! ME TOO OKAY!
is juz tat yoo din even oe i have signed for internet to be used at home cosh yor son don let me tapp his!!
& ONE MORE THING!! i nid to be yor free maid when imm home! & wad yor son did huh?
NOTHING OKAY?!
& MOST OF TH TIMES, I DID YOR STUPID HOUSE CHORES I STILL NID GT SCOLDED OVER IT!
I DO OR I NVR DO I OSO KENA KAO PEI BY YOOO!

& not to 4gt! when i off work & went home, WAD YOO ALWAYS DID TO ME?!

i juz reach home haven even sit down yoo ask me help yor wife do this do tat!

YESH! she work she tired! i nvr work? i nt tired?

& HELL YES!! i nvr heard yoo saying this to yor son too!

once he is home, he sits infront of his com, & YES!

yoo all scold him to ask him go bathe, go eat dinner!

WAD ABOUT ME?!

& this is wad yoo all call DOTE on me! HAHAHA!
& yeah, so wadddd if yoo tell th whole world yoo dote on me, yoo spend alot on me!
lyk hello!
yeahs! yoo bought a N70 for me, & i tink tats th only thing i rmb yoo bought for me?

budd so wad? in the end yoo still sell it & kept the cash isnt it?!

ohh ya! not to 4gt! yesh! when yoo tio 4d tat time yoo gave me $500 bucks!
BUDD SO WAD?! when yoo gave me th $500 , yoo wan me to save budd at th same time yoo deduct my allowance & yoo din gib me my transportation fee too!
so tat replace th $500 isnt it?!
when i have a tuition teacher in th past, YOR SON GET IT TOO!
when yor son did well for his exams, he gt his discman & so.
wad about me huh?! wad did yoo ever gib me for my exams?! yesh! yoo did ever say yoo wanted to buy th walkman for me! budd is when imm in primary 3! budd till primary 6 even till now im 20 yrs old! i din receive any walkman from yoo at all!!

budd anyway, is okay!
cosh i dnt work hard for yor present!
& dnt say yoo pian xin towards me lurh hoh!
is juz tat when i do things i dnt make the whole world oe!
imm not lyk yor son or bodoh sis lurh hoh!
if yoo dont even oe wad is happening in my life!
dont come KAOPEI KAO BU LURHS HOH!

ohh ya! plz stop telling the whole world how much yoo dote on me lurh hoh!
cosh i dnt feel tat way lurh hoh!
only when i gt extra cash to gib yoo then yoo oe hw to dote on me lurh hoh!
if nt yoo will be lyk this few days giving me attitude problems!
is lyk HELLO!!! both yor son n bodohsis have extra cash for their cny clothings!
BUDD! do i have it a nt huh? I DON OKAY?!
& i still gave yoo yor $200 bucks once i take my pay okay?!
i still nid pay hp bill which is $100 okay?!

& still i have to buy my cny clothing by my own pathetic pay okay?!

& I STILL NID MY OWN LIVING EXPENSES CAN?!

of cosh in th start of th month i gt no money liao lurh!

all of yoo tinks i earn 2million per month isit?!

KAO EHHH!

did i complaint anything did i say eh! yoo oso muz gib me? DID I?
I DIN OKAY?! fcuk yoo!
mayb last time yoo shouldnt gib bro to gugu, YOO should gib me to her!
mayb i will be happier man or mayb yoo will be happier too!

& its not i wan to be calculative towards yoo all!

cosh is yoo all wan to count with me 1st!!

& if i wan to count, i dnt tink i gt owe yoo any more money,

is more of yoo owing me can?!

FK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- TO GOD -
plz~ let me leave this place!
take me away! let him chase me out of the house!
i beg yoo.... ;(

2008年の&へのBYE; こんにちは2009年に!

2009-01-02T09:04:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
omygosh! so fast 2009 liao!
immmmmmmmm so old alrdy!!!! :(

ok~ let me recap wat did i do in th yr 2008!
hmm~ been having a bad yr in 2008 lurh
for worklife~

been job hopping with all th boss doting on me! *HOHO*
for friendship~

met alot of passerby but did met some joker in th end due tuh bee!
for family~

still quareling over money here & there! budd compared tuh last few yrs is btr? :D
for love life~

met alot of bastards down th road! been hurt & insulted! budd imm glad i met bee! *eventhough we did quarel alot lurhs! xP*

as for 2009 i hope everything will be btr! :D
for worklife~

i hope i could find a job tat suits me th most & stop me from job hopping again! :D
for friendship~

i hope all my current friendship could last & be true to each other! :D
for family~

i hope money isnt a issue for us to be always quareling & hopefully we could lead a btr in yr 2009! :D
for lovelife~

i hope LAWRENCE PEH ZHEN HAO is th one for me! :D

anyway~ spend my new year celebration with the girls & boys!
& not tuh 4gt my hubby! x3
had steamboat & bbq & majongs!
& i really suey on new year!! T_T
lost $24 bucks sio :(
budd overall had a great day with them yahs?! :D
ohh ya!! went to the temple there is saw fireworks!
OMYMAMA! 1st time i watching fireworks with my boyf!
& the feeling is really nice!
i mean its th 1st yr i spend new year with my frens & boyfs! :D
& took some pictures tuh be uploaded real sooon! xP
n hoh! immm not gg tuh have any new year resolution mann!
cosh all wnt come true! HAHAHAHA!
then went back tuh bee house ard 5+am lorhs!
so tireddd T_T
then rest awhile & went home ard 10am =x
din get scolding from papa! *HEHEX*
then reach home & slp all th way!
till 4+ wake up awhile & went back tuh slp again!
dhen papa wake me up for dinner ard 7+ x=

&& now im blogging in office again!
its so early right?! i oe~~ :DD

k lurhs tats all for now!
LOVE ALL!

♥Miracle

BabyLoved Happy 9th Monthsary ! :D

2008-12-29T16:13:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 9thMONTHSARY!

ohmymama! immm becoming more & more lazy tuh blog lerhs!
budd i did have alot of stuffs & pictures tuh be updated!
mayb shall wait till i free & not lazy huh? :D

ohh yaaa!
i really becoming majong siao lerh lurhs!!
majonging almost everyday can?! budd nvr lose dao!
*HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!* dhen been hanging ard sk with bee & th usual ppl~
& been wasting alot of cash on taxii! T________T
dhen chatted with bee awhile in msn lorhs!
& i really gt very 反感 over his family lurhs!
mayb one day i bth i really gg fk them up & walk away! budd yalurhs, bee still th most kelian one xP
i dnt oe y i so worked up abt th way they treat bee lurhs.
budd all can i say is~
IF one day we are married. i will return them doubled.
so peepos! plz rmb ~
how yoo treat me i will return yoo double.
whether yoo are good to me or bad to me, yahs? :D
&&& i dnt really care hw broke bee is lorhs.
yoo all dnt wan support him then i will try to help out ,
cosh he ish MY BOYF!.
& now yoo all know~
why he love me more than he love the family of his? :D
& why whenever he take his pay he rather invest in me than yoo all? :D
budd of cosh lurhs ~ no hard feelings.
& i guess this is th 1st time imm blogging abt bee's family after so long?
cosh i really bth lerh leh!
ohh ya imm nt trying to badmouth any1.
budd is lyk whenever im lyk at bee's house they will confirm quarel 1.
& all th !%$#!~#~!$# will come out lorhs. i mean if tats hw yoo all communicate then fine lurhs~ budd dnt any1 come tell me about getting hurt when yoo all scold each other ~!@#%%$#!~ !! cosh thats a abit off? =.=" & sorry i cant accept. (:

i mean as a family shouldnt yoo all help each other meh?
does money really matters more than a son? a bro?
社会很现实，那家庭呢？
也跟社会一样的现实吗？
of cosh lurhs i know imm in no position BUDD HOH!
i really 看不下去了!
yalurhs my family oso quarel over money,
budd tats becosh our family is poor. we dnt really earn alot compared to bee's family. budd i dnt oe uds why they still can so gei gao over money lorhs!
i find it abit ridiculous? mayb lurhs. being 'gei gao' being 'meow meow' can be richer tat way? i dnt oe~ hahas.=D
i mean bee earn 500 per month nia leh. even th youngest kid in th whole fam is having a expenses higher than bee lurhs.
somemore still expect bee pay own hp bill, allowance, transportation fee & his meals.
i tink if yoo all dnt have a son to accompany yoo all, a bro to be there protecting yoo guys, & tuh have a 'GEI GAO' & 'MEOW MEOW' son in future~yoo all cant blame him , cosh he is working his ass out there to support himself & he learn everyting from where he live. :D
budd of cosh~ bee i will support yoo one! :D

k lurhs tats all!
gonna find bee ltr tuh pass him ciggy :D
okayys okkays!
I KNOW IMMMM SO SWEEET! :D

ohh ya, b4 i end this entry, juz wana say.
bee din ask me to blog this out & i din ask him for permission to blog about his family. so buei song with wad i blog can come str8 to me. :D whether yoo are from his family or someone who is closed to his family. anyway~ this is my blog. which is for me to vent everything i cant stand. so i dnt see anything wrong blogging out. :D
& is a nono to scold my bee about this. if i find out yoo will get HELL! yesh! HELL! :D

♥MEICHEN

Slacker~

2008-12-20T03:13:00.008+08:00

*Friday Night Pics~

Log Cake...

Breezer & Ciggy

No Opener so let's just use my Teeth xD

Strong huh?
Aha~ Ta Da ^__^

O.o? Random~

2008-12-20T02:41:00.013+08:00

*Friday

Woke up early, pompom le thn cabbed to work...
Started early and was setting up my mis-en-place,
set up salad bar le, thn went into e fridge to check e stuff,
was SHOCKED to find tat e Western Bowl was all done ^^.
Super Happy all preparation was done !!!

So went and cut some Romain Lettuce for Cesar Salad, wash up some mix green,
cut some fruits for e Rojak and pineapple.
Topped up my stuff in e display fridge and done :))

Went Over to find Bee after work, lols,
went to her house and mommomed dinner,
Played some mahjong,
thn mommom Log Cake ~.~
Wendy buy wor wahaha thks nice wor lol.

Cereals~

Cold Cuts,Smoked Salmon& Assorted Cheese~

Mix Green,BlueBerry&Raspberry,Cottage Cheese,Cherry Tomato
Mix Fruits in Syrup,Thousand Island Sauce&Vinegratte

Fresh Milk,Skim Milk,Soy Milk,ChocolateMilk,

Tomato Juice,Carrot Juice

Museli and Fruit Cocktail
Lunch Set up-Crackers,Pecan nuts,Walnuts,Mix Green,Grapes,

Assorted Cheese
Salads Made by Grade Manager~ TASTY!
Cesar Salad in Cheese Wheel: Hate tis cheese wheel,must carry

myself manually -__- tiring Job ah~
Delicious Thai Salad^^
Overall Look~

HOTPINK IS LOVED! :D

2008-12-17T17:00:00.002+08:00

HOHOHOHO~
:D

is this skin nice?!
ohmytiannn! I SIMPLY LOVE THIS SKIN SO MUCHHH!!
coshh is my favourite HOTPINK !! 爱死咯~~
&& i LOVE th tagboard design too! laugh!

k lurhs tats all for today!
tomlo then update more! ^^

♥MEICHEN

私は幸せな女の子である!! (:

2008-12-12T16:02:00.003+08:00

ahh~
been mia-ing again! xP
kayys lurhs. took pictures!!!
budd din bring cable tuh office hence~
i cant upload! so bear with it huh?! anyway~
bee says i have been gambling queen n din have th time tuh hug him! *ROFL*
cosh i haf been playing poker everywhere i go~
at home~his place~even OFFICE! xP & majongg at his place~ HAHA
budd HELLLO~~~ yoo gambled tgt with me leh! =3=

k lurhs.UPDATES!!
anyway i had a great time meeting up mami & laopo tgt with bee on last friday~
dhen actually bee asked psk along~ budd in th end he PS us! *KNS*
he really is 名副其实的 PSK!! kayys lurhs continue~
dhen had our pepper lunch at marina square!
& as usual imm th 1st tuh reached! xP
not 'kia su' budd its PUNCTUALkayys? xP
dhen chatted alot with them barhs~
especially laopo! listen to my complaints! HAHAHA!!
dhen bee send me home & went off~ :D

& LAOGONG,
so ps ehh! din haf time tuh go dating with yoo!
budd i will try tuh make myself free soon for yoo!
BUDDD OF COSHH! gort 条件 one~ *LAUGH*
& its~~ TALK MORE EHH!!!! if nort i will fall aslp derhs!
xP

okkayyys lerhs!
tats all for now :D & maybb majong ltr? :D
dhen pictures will be uploaded nxt time when immm not so lazy ,
& with cable bought tgt with me!

LOVE.

♥MEICHEN

2008-12-11T22:51:00.003+08:00

Thursday

Bad start for a day, was late for work, didnt turn up in e end... -__-.

Inform Late to tell them i MC too x((.

Anyway who cares tmr gettin a Warning Letter x)),

wth? hahas must really watch my arse le in e kitchen now T_T.

Went over to pick babe up, sat on bus bak to Tamp,

were lyk holding my Laughter as she kept on tickling me hahas.

In the end, i lost as she found e spot -__- ...

Went to mommom @ her hse n pizza as supper? hahas.

Bee treated her family ^__^ hw Sweet!!!

After tat went home, while fetching cab e stupid driver stopped,

didnt wanted to move, road so busy cant cross,

you guys know wad he did?

HE DROVE OFF WTH???

CityCab !!! This is e first tym sio wth~ wth~ wth~ ...

Waited fer another cab, citycab agn, tis tym a Ah Neh driver...

He drove thn suddenly his fone rang, he's FLIRTING -__-...

OMG~!!! He suddenly drive super SLOW SLOW SLOW.

and So Pissed off sio, laugh so loud thn i'm nt thr liddat ...

SHC1026J is tat driver car plate so PISSED OFF x((

Went over to Garden n smoked, feeling down ...

thn sang e song tat i wrote, feelin so cool as it's breezy.

Thn suddenly water started to drip onto my shirt,

i'm lyk ???

looking from whr it came and it's from e wall & celling thn i'm leaning onto

Shocked,Stunt but not scared hahas...

So after 2 sticks i went home and nw waiting fer Bee to call xD

ZhenHao

I Cherished & Love All Of Yoo.

2008-12-05T16:13:00.003+08:00

Hellos all!!
back with a disappointed mood. :(
friendships are all fragile barhs? lols.
maybb holding friends as priority isn't a good thing?
true lurhs~
we cant expect much from friends.
coshh we are all having different path of life,
meeting different kind of ppl , getting busy.
budd shouldn't we at least have a lil concern abt each other?
y should we act as a complete stranger?
haiish. :'(

all this while, i met all kinds of people.
may it be boyfs or friends. good or bad?
quiet or talkative? serious or crazy?
gentle or not gentle? girls or boys?
man or women?

yoo guys tat happens to appear in my life,
added some colours for me.
might be bright might be dull.
budd i appreciate it.

no matter wad reasons tat make us fall apart.
such as busy schedule, quarels, fights, etc.
imm glad yoo guys are once in my life.

& for ppl who are in my life now.
i cherished yoo guys & i love yoo guys.
hopefully,
i could have a ever lasting friendship with yoo guys whether yoo are my gan(s) or friends.
& of cosh.
a ever lasting r/s with yoo, bee.

♥MEICHEN

Tagged & Done! :D

2008-12-02T12:07:00.004+08:00

1.Wat is ur name(a full one)
Miracle Lau Mei Chen

2.do i like my name?
Yeaps ! :D

3.How long have you like the person you currently like?
ermm~ 8months+ :D

4. Have you kiss anyone before?
OF COSHH! :D

5.Did you cry today?
nahs. (:

6.What are you doing in the morning 8?
waiting for th bus!!

7.What are you doing an hour ago?
bloggging!! :D

8.What are you currently doing?
boredd dg this quiz lorhs ! =.="

9.Who last texted you a message?
HoneyBoyf♥.

10.Have you told anyone you love them today?
erhhhh? dnt rmb! LOL

11.Do you miss anyone now?
all my gan(s) & Boyf! :D

12. Any plan for tomorrow?
erhhh~ not confirmed! budd currently nope ! ^^

13.What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
dont wana mentioned.

14.Is there anyone you want to be with now?
MY BED!!

15.Have you kiss anyone with the name starting with 'S'?
erhhhh~~~ dnt really rmb? =.="

16. Name someone who made you smile today. How?
Honeyboyf & Cyrys Daddy :D

17.Name a friend whose name starts with 'Z'.
erhh. maybb nope?

18.Which of a friend stay closest to you?
BEE♥

19.Do you prefer to call or to text?
see my moooddd lorhs!:D

20.Was yesterday better than today?
suppose tuh be btr ytd!! budd was spoilt by some spoiler at home!!!

21. Can you live a day without your TV and your phone?
FONE =nono!, TV = YESYES!

22.Are you mad about anything now?
nop? =D

23.Do you ever think that relationship are worth in to.
yesh. budd i changed my mind in th end :D

24. Last person you visited in the hospital.
erhmm~ cant rmb =.="

25.When is your second and last hug.
YTD :D

26.wat does ur last msg say.
" okayys~ "

27.how you feel about life?
SUCKS!!

28.Do you hate anyone?
OF COSH!

29. Last person you called?
bee♥~

30.Who usually send you the most text in a month?
bee♥~

31.Is your room messy now?
erherherh~ no comments? :D

No gg tuh tagg anyone! :D
So~ Do it if yoo wan!! *smile*

A Happy Day Turns Out To Be Sucky! :(

2008-12-02T11:19:00.003+08:00

WOOT! immm back!
WE MET UP WITH DADDY ALRDY! :D
ohhmymama! his cheeks are so softttt & so nice tuh pinch!
HAHA! so from now~
everytime he scold vulgarities i get tuh pinch his cheeks!
&& is one vulgarities = 1 pinchhh! :D
while for bee is 1 vulgarities = $1 !
hahas! then we went tuh fernvale tuh see th "so called" Hello Kitty shop!
& bee treated us icecreammm! :D
dhen went back tuh '香港脚' tuh slack~
playyedd pokerrrr~~~ for dai di i won alot~
daddy losinggg lyk hell~ luckily we nvr play money !
if nott daddy gg tuh bang wall die ahh~
dhenn daddy 分牌分到 siao! hahas.
after awhile daddy suggest play blackjack~
& I LOSTTT! bud actually is no win no lose lurhs!
cosh i nvr bring my money out~ hohohoho~ :DD

soon after tat~
aloy came followed by yuting & joanna~
dhen play poker~slack~smoke~chat~laugh~
*seems tuh be th days i slacked with my ginnas & siao ehs~!- i missed themm.. :(*
after tat we went over joanna's house & majionggg!~
lost alot =.=" damn stress when playing can?!
cosh bee kip say i lose de is he pay~ budd i sayy~
will pay him back once i take pay wad =.="
then kip saying n saying till i no mood play =.="
so in the end only won 2 rounds! LMAO
& in the end ~
yuting is th winner~ & i tink imm th big loser! =P
budd add with bee~only lose $5.50~ HAHA
after tat~
i went back tuh bee's house tuh take my bag & laptop~
& off tuh MacDonalds~! & back tuh hell lurhs! ;(
lols. anyway spent a very happy day ytd with
bee, cyrus Daddy, yuting Sis, aloy & joanna.
budd i was damn damn damn tired lurhs!
cabbed back after that & reach home quarel with those irritating sibilings!
ROARRR!i wana move out mann! ;'(
haiish!

THEY ARE SUCHA SPOILERRR! SPOILT MY MOOD TOTALLY LORHS!~
FCUKKKKKKKKK!!!

♥MEICHEN

New Skin Done Finaly

2008-12-01T13:40:00.002+08:00

yupyup!
back with a superrr duperrrr simple skin!
kaoo ehh!
make limbu do for 3-6days =.="
cosh th fcuking codes are so hard tuh understand!
*ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR*

okayys ~ anyway~
juz a quick post~ :D
went uh Catherine (mei) bday bbq ytd!
met some of her frens. lols.
very friendly lurhs! & i saw finding nemo there too!
hahas. then went back ard 9+ with bee~
dhen HOME SWEET HOME~!
& yupyup~ conference with daddy & bee ytd :D
some unhappy stuffs happen~ budd nt gonna blog about it lurhs!
cosh is super longgg~ (:
dhen gonna find 1 day & conference with mami they all alrdy!
very long nvr conference with them~
kinda missed it :D

okayys~
meeting daddy ltr!
he gonna come down sk find us :D
& lunch tgt! HOHOHOHO!
immm having sucha hardworking daddy who travel from TPY to SK tuh look for us!
:D *loves*

dhen meeting wanton laopo & mami on friday!
for dinner~ :D
so long nvr meet liao! are they still th same?:D

k lurhs tats all!
budbye :D

♥MEICHEN

Happy 8thMonthsary tuh HappyCouple♥ !

2008-11-27T09:14:00.000+08:00

din blog for 4 days lerhs! (:
quite bz recently lurhs! *bz playing audi & maple* LAUGH!
& since tday is HoneyBoyf & HoneyGirlf (me) derh 8thmonthsary!
immmmmm here! & not tuh 4gt let my laogong read story lurhs! hahas.
dhen ytd!
had a bad bad bad bad "talking" with my dad! *ROARRR*
damn dulan can?! budd is quareling over MONEY again!
same old thing. so not gonna blog about it!
budd imm so fking dulan lurhs! 气死我！ *haiish*

& i tink tats all fer now? :D
ohh ya! ytd i dreamt about Bee , Bee's Family & of cosh my ~~HELL~~FAMILY!
& is someting damnnn funny derhs!
in th dream i tink my dad & bee's dad din oe tat actually my dad is my dad~
bee's dad is bee's dad! & bee's dad tried to challenge my dad tuh fight!
& i swear their expression in th dream is damnnnnn fking funny!
LAUGH MY ASS OUT !
can yoo imagine? hahhas!
wondering wad will happen if this happen in real life instead of dream!~
hahahas!!

♥MEICHEN

幸せな第20誕生日!

2008-11-23T00:31:00.007+08:00

HELLO ALL!
;D

Happy 20th Belated Birthday to ~
ME, MYSELF & I!!!

Thanks for the following ppl who wished me for my birthday! :D

HoneyBoyf.
MaggieLMQBodohSis
Mummyy
LouisLBKKorKor
WendyJie
DaYi
CowPaPa
MayiLaoGong
ChristineMaMi
XiangElephant
Carmen
YasminZhaBor
AmyAunty
QingWenKor
YuTai
Malcom
KeithAhLian
Keith
Alvin
Yvonne
Radiah
June
Jennifer
Winson

(no ranking yahs? xD & everything is through memory, so if i left yoo out immm so sorry yahs?! budd dont worry! cosh imm very thankful & ilu tuuh!!^^)

okayys! immm quite shock some of them stil rmb my birthday!
& on 21st Nov imm not th only birthdaygal!
coshhh from th people i knew~
QingWenKor & AmyAunty 's birthday oso fall on th same day! lols
so yahs! Happy Birthday To Yoo Tuh! ^^

anyway~
spent this yr birthday with HoneyBoyf.!
went tuh Shang-Ri-La for celebration of my bday in 1day advanced!
ate their buffet! & was damnnn full! *nearly puked lorhs!*
budd overall was nice ^^
& th best thing is!!!!
I SAW YASMIN AT SHANG!!!
did a lil catched up with her~
chatted alot alot & alot! hahas.
missed those days where we will gather & down tuh smoke in KWE.
& heard many updates from her lorhs!
got good & baddd! budd yahs~
all th best tuh all my KWE-excolleagues!!^^

& on my birthday itself~
had my birthday cake cut this yr :D
is lyk! HELLOOOO! after so long?
dhen had a small bday surprise at home by HoneyBof,KorKor,BodohSis & Mummy!
& not tuh 4gt!
Radiah aka Despatch used all of her money tuh buy long-gans for me!
cosh she cant afford tuh buy a cake!
hahas! so touched mann! ILOVEHER & i appreciate wad she did! :DD
& carmen tuhh! hahas
she have been wishing me from morning~ till i off work!
soooo cute & funny rite? :D
budd yahs~
she told me something & i find it so true lurhs!:D

'' WE don nid many friends,
just a few GOOD friends will do!! ''

& yuppp!
i guessed for those friends who actually made used of me,'KA' my money & etc.
yoo know who yoo are. i dont wana named.
so yahs.
this ishh wad i wana tell yoo!
FUCK YOO ! & FUCK OFF! :D

okayys~
thats all for now!
pictures will be uploaded nxt time when immm not lazy!
LOVING ALL OF YOO!!~

♥MEICHEN